Woof...

The forward to the new book is pretty much done.  Yeah, fun choice of words and yes, I am glorious for choosing to use those words lol  I'll say this much, to rehash everything provides a good perspective and after rehashing everything, I'm more than just good.  The rehashing is an exercise I must undertake if this is to be done right.  I have to base all things on what was felt as I wrote to be able to piece everything correctly and that my friends, is a welcome trip to say the least.  I just hope my muse will be happy with what I'm able to produce.  She don't read my blog so I'll just let some shit out right quick lol  I'll just "blame it on the boogie" if she finds out.  God, I'm delirious lol  

It's funny but most often rehashes are done by people that have broken up looking to say this or that was a mistake.  Some times they may be right but in the case of this particular rehash which has nothing to do with a break-up, I'm gonna tell you the truth.  I fell because I was supposed to as the connection we have gave me no motherfuckin choice...period.  How's that for truth?  If I no longer loved her, I'd say that I'd do it all again in a fuckin heartbeat.  Want more truth?  Furthermore, we might be on different roads at the moment but that don't mean shit to someone like me as I am one that believes that anything can happen.  I ain't waitin around for it but when and if our romantic roads meet again?  Her room is fully furnished and ready for occupancy.  Why?  I've said it almost every damn post...when love is true, it doesn't change.  The only thing that can and should change is if the relationship was toxic.  In those cases, you have no choice but to love from afar...like another state kind of far.  Now, I can't speak for her but I can only speak for myself when I say this sappy stuff because this is how I view love.

Why is all this so important?  I keep coming back to the same issue.  Most of you find or make up reasons as to why you broke up during your own rehash sessions and start speaking negatively of an ex.  No matter what happens with my muse, I will always see her as beautiful as the day I met her soul for the first time.  So whatever happens from the break-up point or backing-away or whatever the fuck you need to call it should never make a difference when it comes to the truth of things.  All the women I have loved throughout my life had issues as do I but when the good substantially outweighed the bad, I will not hesitate to praise their worth and value.  Never allow what you feel today to taint what you felt then.  If it was real...say so.  If she was a good woman...say so.  If you fucked up...say so.  Just keep it real is all I'm saying.  Back at it tomorrow!!!

On a side note, it feels fuckin great to let this out here publicly since only a handful of people know the story.  Her name will remain safely tucked away but the story is so rich in real merit and truth.  I'm glad I can finally speak on it since I'm putting this all together anyway.  Yet sadly for you all nosy folk, as beautiful as you still are, this is as much as I will say so suck it lol

~Moses Apollo        

PS:  I re-read all this and noticed it was all over the place...but who cares!!! lol  Still true...