Moses Apollo of Apolinaris

To the right, to the left, we will fight to the death
To the Edge of the Earth, It's a brave new world, It's a brave new world
The War Is Won

Here he is.  With no question about himself unanswered.  Willingly drenched in grace and sin...indulging in each with abandon.  He has studied the facets of his spirit, soul and body.  Now, with only one stone left unturned.  There is no backwind left to sway him.  All that's left is that stone.  The one he's feared for so long is no longer an issue and it is the one stone with a forward wind to catapult him into purpose.  It says one thing..."come to Me and I will give you all you need to be more than just a man".  I no longer fear this power.  I only wait for the time to turn the stone and it's getting closer by the day.  I have always said I am who and what I am.  One that now understands the difference between passion and lust...that God can glorify Himself in both.  That art is a gift from God as an extension of His own creativity.  That drunkenness is not a sin but just a fools state of mind.  That the beauty and admiration for a woman is the natural state of a man as it is the natural state of a woman but whose taste I personally only allow through the substance of real passion and not just the wasted state of lust.  All things that make for the better man and a better me.  For I now understand that all things harmful carry the seeds of an evil that if fed, will bind and twist...whose purpose is an eventual death.  "For ALL things are lawful for me but not all things edify".  Yeah, today I know that I am more free than even I knew.  He is my perpetual friend and He has accepted the man I am and the man I am becoming.  A man with no fear...

This is the clarion call of a God whose gift of grace has been neglected.  Replaced with dogma, tradition and fear.  Whose grace has been supplanted by deeds and tradition as a means to please Him.  Tradition, that has alienated the very ones in need of Him.  Tradition that has stolen their humanity to the point they can no longer even look at the very humans they were called to love for fear of some mythical contamination.  What good is your God if you can't even trust "the Him in you" to take you into the very depths of Hell itself because you mistakenly fear picking up some imp along the way.  If you fear His displeasure by what your now dead law calls sin then you have fallen from grace in the worst way possible.  You see, you look and sound clean.  You follow the sabbath and go to every prayer meeting.  You feel redeemed by your deeds but in truth you are more bound than you have ever been.  You see no one but those that think the same way.  You lock yourself into buildings and you believe this brings you closer to God with every step but in truth what you feel is a false sense of justification to come closer to the throne and don't even realize that you have replaced His gift with your curse.  His grace with your law because in your mind, you have accepted that your deeds are more important to Him than His sacrifice.  You are predictable and fall short of being called "born-again".  For those that are born again are like the wind.  "You don't know from where they are coming or where they are going".  Why?  Because there is no written law that governs them.  Only the law of the Spirit which is an impossible law by the standards of man...the law of love.  Loving Him and loving man.  Something that can only be determined by the true intent of the heart in every single individual.  Try to judge that one and get back to me.  You think you can judge fruit by deed alone?  Plant a fruit tree and tell me if you see the inner workings of the tree as the seeds grow.  Look into the cellular structure of the branches and tell me how far along is the fruits growth.  Yeah, good luck with that lol  Fruit is judged over time folks.  There are seeds I've planted that have born fruit years later but they have been judged by their initial lack of fruit by those that are quick on the judgement trigger finger.  Those that can only find the sides of the spirit or the flesh but deny God the use of their soul...the very element that makes us the bridge between Him and man.

To be human knowing that you are saved by grace and that as a human you are now to operate under the power of God that men could see something from Him they can aspire to is not so simple.  This is easy with a to-do list but with such a list you create another set of laws so guess what?  You need to find this out with Him alone.  It's not found in a building, it's not found in a seminary, it's not found in anything seen by the naked eye.  It's only found in communion with Him.  You didn't think He was there because you and others saw you in sin but He was there when you woke up this morning and waited for at least a "Good morning Lord".  You thought you could only find Him in a church building but He held the door for you in every building you entered waiting for at least a "Thanks Lord".  You thought you could only find Him if you carried a huge Bible under your arm but that very same Word made flesh could be recalled at any time from the Spirit you are now one with.  You thought you could only hear Him from the weekly service when all you needed to do was say "Lord?".  All this time, you saw Him as an external piece in an eternal relationship and you have neglected Him every second of every day because you actually thought He would shun you the way man in his dogmatic tradition does.  Turn that thought off and do more than change your mind...change your heart and begin to live in Him...as you.  A human flawed and tortured by life's questions created to become more.  He's gonna need you in your passion.  He's gonna need you in your rage.  He's gonna need you in your grief.  He's gonna need you to answer questions someone will ask and the answer will need to be more than just "pray".  When your neighbor sitting in a bar needs answers or just someone to listen, He'll tug at you and you will be required to do your part.  All these things that make you who you are will serve Him in a time when humanities very existence will be threatened.  So now, get off your silly, grief stricken, sin sullied ass, turn to your right and say..."Lord?...fine, I'm here"   Feel His smile and listen...

Church folk, I ain't judging you or condemning you but I'm calling you to come out.  Consider for a moment that you are in a system that is still in protest to an abomination and consider also that you will be called soon to rejoin this abomination (those with ears to hear will understand).  Consider also that the very edifices that you are dependant on towards your salvation will soon become obsolete and/or anathema to the new system.  I'm not calling for tricks or modernity.  I'm just calling for us all to return to a time before the disciples became staples in books.  That place and time where fishermen, tax collectors and prostitutes just sat and listened.  They didn't quote Him by the simplistic combination of words but they quoted His intent.  For what is meant in any sentence bears the weight of the lesson way more than combined letters on a page.  It is the difference between the spirit and the letter of a thing.  The scriptures were never meant to bind us but set us free.  These words remain our reference but we MUST reread these words finding out why things were said and if we do this, we will find the human application as the shadow that takes us further into knowing His true substantive nature and all He truly intended for us.  Not just as a people...but as individuals that live in a world where one size does not fit all.  We will not all be the same so don't change a thing.  Just make room for Him to show you how you can become better...and more.  In this you will find His ultimate purpose for your life.  As for me?  Like I said...I am who and what I am...until next time, if there is one ;-)

~Moses Apollo