Near Death...

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The life after death experience... what a ride huh folks? Some see the tunnel at whose end there is a light. Others, hear voices in the dark slowly begin dragging them down into darkness. Most see my Lord letting them know its not their time yet but almost all come out thinking they've been internally forever changed by the experience.

I know of one person close to me that was dead for 15 minutes and came back thinking 2 months had past in the new realm. She was taken on a tour of eternity that was impeccably intune with Bibilical accounts... without ever having read it. She knew intimate details nobody could have ever known and traveled through time periods that others had kept secret. She was also able to confirm the existence of things I knew existed but could never speak of. Not just because they'd be misunderstood but also because people were not ready to hear about them yet. Hell, we might even know who Jim Morrisons naked indian in the desert is lol

Now, you all know that those that truly know dont speak about it and that those that do speak about it usually want you to know they're other worldly types banking on borderline worship smh 

My whole thing is about "the change" that's supposed to take place. Listen folks, if you can't find the better you by introspection alone, dont count on angels, demons or realms to do it for you. So many come out of those experiences walkin on clouds, wearing the mantle of seers but in their hearts, they're just as they ever were. Nothing really changes. This experience is used as a diving board to decide which incarnation of themselves they're gonna try to stick with this time. Will it be the "we must put others others first because life is so short?" Or will it be the "f*ck everybody else, imma do for me because life is way too short to give a sh*t anyway". Then there's the "indifferent what does it matter anyway. Whoever or whatever i am won't mean a thing anyway to anyone when I'm gone". All true in a sense but all stupid...

How about instead of making it about "others", you taking that experience and looking back at your life. Taking inventory on all you didn't become and deciding from that day forward to become the very soul you've always wanted to be? What do you notice here? That another's opinion dont mean sh*t in this rationale. It's about YOU. You are no longer looking to replace something external that failed to make yourself feel whole. Put this goal first in God... and all the right internals will see their way to find you like complex puzzle piece that finally found their match without even trying.

It's always nice to have a moment of epiphany but what good is it if it doesn't last. Start from the inside out and take note how you keep choosing the same types, the same flavors and the same roads. Your heart may want to believe all may seem comfortable... but there is always a very good chance that in the land if the living... your life might just have outgrown them. Think about it might loves... I'm out

~moses apollo

Light Whispers In The Dark...

"i'm ready..."

Laying down in a hospital bed tryin to sleep. Been here since Friday. Just now realizing I spent Father's Day in this place... what a ride my beautiful people lol

Remember this ALWAYS... right before a breakthrough, there will always be a test or challenge sent to diminish your faith. For me, it's like a marker to greater things... and I ain't never been wrong. Like light whispers in the dark, I've become adept at hearing... I can see what's coming, and I'm ready ;-) Sweetest dreams my loves ❤️ 

~moses apollo

Metaphors In Memory...

"breathe, breathe... breathe..."

in the vast expanse before time was time, he came to meet a few soon to be souls that would eventually become part of his training ground. a training ground we would all ultimately be assigned to called "life". some he came to know intimately but others would come and go as needed... and it would be no different on earth. except that on earth, they would need to become reacquainted... as though it were for the first time. for his part, he became adept at "picking-up" who he'd been connected to but seldom, if ever, could he ever tell you the when and the where... he just knew... and so did apparently (in one way or another) the ones he had been connected with. he came to find that the real ones were unsought after, chance encounters... "happy accidents" if you will. sometimes there were subtle "signs" that he'd usually not consider strong enough to come to conclusions over but other times, "markers" would come in dreams and "other worldly" manifestations proving connection. what he'd decide to do about it was another story. he could pursue it or not. it all depended on where their hearts and circumstances were at the time of identification. meeting so many, from so many ranges in age and walks of life proved one thing for him: he must have spent a very long time in the expanse before being released onto his own training ground.

in the expanse, for him, there was always a co-mingling but most just stuck to the people within their purposed future categories. not for any other reason than simple gravity. like all celestial bodies, folk were pulled together "just because." in this place, there was no selfishness or ego. no games... just the freest flowing love you could possibly imagine. sharing moments of laughter, touch, feeling and care without any thought to agenda or ownership... it was just magic. what love was truly meant to embody. shared through friendship, family and even pair bondings that once tasted... were strong enough to make their way into the training grounds each would eventually come to be assigned to. the only issues they'd come to face usually had to do with who would be sent to ground first (as this would affect age) and what their training had the potential to create along the way (character wise). yet even among these issues, the pull of those bonds would somehow come to survive. even when the re-pairing was no longer a viable or wise thing to attempt.

sometimes this would manifest as a gravitation toward others that shared many of the same peripheral characteristics without even knowing they were doing so... surprising even themselves upon internal examination. honest attempts, that would eventually come to failure. a dance that would be repeated over and over again. all in the hopes of landing in that ever place of magic. where they came to learn that the existence of love shared among creation was pure, real and worthy of expedition... even upon the "tainted by counterfeit" training grounds we now call life. breathed into a passion to seek out connection to God and each other... spoken into our DNA before it even existed. articulating volumes of deep wisdom simplified into two commandments: "love God... and each other". "knowing" without knowing, that something beautiful existed and exists simply because we've "had it" without remembering ever having it. truly one of the most beautiful sonnets ever written into the fabric of creation. 

as such, we that tread upon the jagged stones and the lilies of life will seek it and come to find it a few times over. what we decide to do upon finding it... is as yet another piece waiting to be written. and i know i have plenty of time...

don't mind me though... "imagination" is a hell of a thing ;-) 

~moses apollo