Some Will...

"...angels are everywhere..."

In this world encumbered by care and distracted by flair, we think we travel along a solitary road of no consequence.  Nothing could be further from the truth.  Many roads overlap and intersect.  As such, we are bound to touch a life in one way or another.  So then...carry your gift...  

Some will leave a smile, some will leave a word.  Some will bless with song and others in their writing.  Some will encourage and others will muse...always leaving their eternal footprint in the heart or on the road.  So think not yourselves lacking in purpose simply because you've not seen the effects of all you've left behind for you may never see them.  Only be aware that every so often, you will be presented with the opportunity to travel on another's road.  Make sure that you are ready with your gift...to bless or edify as the need should arise.  Do your part...find your purpose.  Your mark will remain...I promise...

~Moses 

Pressed Love - A Poem by Moe

"Let your love be strong and I don't care what goes down..."

all truth in love, my passion's aim

did seem to keep my soul

until I found it not the same

returned from hearts unwhole

for all I gave was pure at heart

without the liars ruse

yet all received could not take part

for all had need to use

and yet I stand this savvy fool

unfazed and unimpressed

for what I wield is not some tool

that quantifies my best

instead I hold inside of me

the need to feel what's real

to seep beyond the eyes I see

and grasp the big reveal

and though I speak sincere and true

too good to some it seems

I still believe that love is new

when found outside my dreams

so wake my lovers, take the test

outside your fairy tale

for cause all love in life is pressed

that it should never fail

~Moses Apollo

Worth The Price - A Poem by Moe

"So let my life be the proof, the proof of your love..."

my God has granted this old soul

three fingers dipped in beauty's bowl

to touch those grace created lands

from greenest earth to desert sands

to see His face between steel bars

and raise my hands beneath His stars

to water hearts resolving drought

and whisper love dissolving doubt

but never have I felt so fine

as when He poured me lovers wine

for when I held His sacrifice

I knew then love was worth the price

~Moses Apollo

Senator John McCain...

Yeah...we're human after all...and I'm glad

I write tonight with a bit of a heavy heart.  I read tonight that Senator John McCain has brain cancer and it has left me a bit conflicted at heart and I can assure you that it's not an evil thing.  It's a human thing...as usual.  Now most of you know that on my blog I try to stay clear of politics because I believe that politics has very little to do with life as I define it in its purity.  I see the necessity to know its inner workings in the same way that I believe everyone should know the inner workings of the car they drive lest a mechanic should cheat them on repairs.  I saw this need very young when I saw how politicians would use the media to shift and twist morality to meet an agenda that had more to do with their acquisition of power than with the prosperity of the nation they were called to serve.  So I became a student of politics.  Not just in terms of policy but more importantly...in its physcology.  I saw how quickly if allowed, it could dominate every corner of one's life and that this drive was part of an evil as old as Hell itself.  Causing enmity among hunkered down groups of thought and driving wedges between family, friends and lovers.  To mitigate this evil, I understood that in the same way you park your car and get out to tend to the day...so it must be with politics.  So even though my views are reasoned and sure, this blog, my writings and my life focused and will always focus more on what matters most...true life, true love and real purpose.

So on this night, I write a bit heavy because I have not agreed with many of the positions John McCain held.  In fact I was angered by many things he's said and done.  I can also say that there are also some vets that have spoken out against him but thankfully, this part of my thought process fits in the glove compartment of my car.  The part of me that I have chosen to preserve and cultivate can still see a man that inspired many.  I still see a man that enlisted to serve this nation that I love so very much.  I still see a man with a heart of steel that fought for what he believed in...even when I thought he was wrong.  Yet most of all, I see a man with a family that loves him and I could only imagine what they are feeling right now.  So tonight I step outside my car and park it far from my sight to honor him for his bravery, for his service and for the testimony left by those that love him and grieve knowing the challenges they are soon to face.  I do ask that God give his family the strength they will need to endure what they must and that if these should be his final days, that he would spend his days with them...doing what matters most.  Loving, laughing and living...

As every day meets a night and as every sun is made to set...so it shall be for every man that has served with distinction.  The time will come to rest after the days have drawn their close to take the time to celebrate the life they have lived.  It is not death...it is just an acknowledgment of the life lived by great men such as these.

In these coming days, I can see a beautiful wave on the horizon...a wave that no amount of political maneuvering or narrative driven effort will be able to prevent.  Most times a wave represents a trial but not this time...as this wave is a wave that brings with it needful water.  An end to the longest drought this nation has ever experienced.  Those with "ears to hear and eyes to see" will understand what I mean and I can say that in his own way...Senator John McCain brought us one step closer to this new reality.  May God bless John McCain and his family.  That God would grant his family strength and grace him more time to make new memories with those he loves.  Much love...I'm out

~Moses   

Trees Acclaim - A Poem by Moe

"...they say we're crazy..."

oh what a great and awesome find

when truth makes way from heart to mind

to travel passions wildest throws

and land in spaces where one knows

that what is wild and grown from flame

was pointed towards a reasoned aim

and once flame settles purposed cause

it now sees worth to great applause

foundations are as fertile ground

to plant the seeds of what is sound

and grow the trees that bear the fruit

that feeds the branch from wisdom's root

though branches shift by life it seems

they all make sense like steady streams

and if they ask from whence it came

it's fruit will boast of trees acclaim

~Moses Apollo

Pebbles In A Pond...

"...not my will but Yours be done..."

So many people have the misconception that the only thing that can make a difference is the big splash.  I can recall many times in my life where I've been blessed to see the tiny inception of a deed or the sharing of an idea make it's way to unintended areas where it's real impact was felt.  This song was chosen from a huge selection of Maranatha worship songs.  Our choir director thought it'd be nice to sing it as an anthem and I was picked as lead vocal.  We sang it in a few spanish eastern district events and people began asking I sing it acapella.  It made it's way through the district channels and finally landed on Donnie McClurkin's album.  Our choir director had no inclination that it would go far as it did...neither did Maranatha.  We Christian teens just wanted to worship our God.  In the end, that song brought joy to so many souls and I am blessed to have been a part of that.

You never know how far a thing will go...especially when it's done without the thought of largess.  A hug, a hello or a small word of wisdom will go where it's needed and you may never know how far it went.  Small deeds and short words are never really small or short.  If you know this then you come to understand that every piece in your puzzled journey has a place.  Things matter more than we know and knowing this is living a life of significance.  Understand the wisdom in this and like the pebble in a pond that inspires ripples towards an end...start playing the role you were meant to...much love...

~Moses

My Weighty Wealth - A Poem by Moe

"I was lightning...before the thunder..."

oh look at me, you think you know

which way this beastly man does flow

your eyes divine simplistic grunt

whose ways seek out what prey to hunt

but you don't know the meat and sheen

that flows in depths not often seen

look past the eyes, dispel the type

that lesser men have sought to hype

this outer man to me is home

reflective of my inner Rome

rich substance keeps in brutish stealth

till worth unlocks my weighty wealth  

~Moses Apollo 

Where The Fool Finds Worth...

"...life is short, I wanna live it well..."

I've shared many times on this blog that I consider myself a proud fool.  The fool is consciously blind to dangers when it comes to surrendered trust, vulnerability and passion.  He is reckless and brave to a fault.  Virtues that can easily turn to vices when misdirected.  Yes, I am that fool but I can also attest that I have become a wise fool.  Allow me to explain the difference.  A fool sees the possibility of danger but decides to jump anyway.  The wise fool takes stock in his experience and decides if the fall is worth the danger.  Seasoned pain, hurt and mistrust can jade the soul into believing safety is all but although a safe life is in most cases a wise life, there are moments one can miss when the risk is worth the reward and safety is chosen instead.  So then, how does one become a wise fool?

Folks, there are way too many fools in this world that use the term "you only live once" to justify stupidity and the young taste the sour of this drink on most occasions.  A wise fool becomes wise by learning from their mistakes and understanding that only meat is worth a jump.  Once they learn to find the meat of life, they will eventually be able to distinguish between what is worth being "stupid" for and what is not.  These days I can tell you there's not much meat left in this world but if you reserve the fool in you for the slim chance that you are graced to find it...you will be rewarded with a greatness you've seldom known as the reward of such a find is worth it's weight in gold.

The fool in love will fall for souls that may bring chaos and uncertainty.  They will surrender their heart with abandon only to find disappointment and pain.  Their choices can have the ability to jade their hearts to the point that their selection process will begin to resemble a bunch of thought out surface checklists on an empty page.  The problem?  They come to find their minds at ease while their hearts remain unfulfilled.  These will usually find contentment but can easily be pulled away for reckless encounters devoid of substance and value.  The ones that lead with the heart and passion will always be torn between what they want and what they need.  They can find the lover but that lover may never become someone worthy to be called "partner".  The seasoned know what they have over time and only surrender after sufficient evidence has been presented to them that lets them know "it's ok to be a fool here".  The same can be said for those that invest time, money and passion into ventures and endeavors that may or may not produce success.  So in this, there is an all encompassing wisdom...

Time my people...time.  It seems these days no one is willing to take that time to learn who and what is worth their complete surrender.  They "YOLO" their lives away along with whoever they carry with them without thought of consequence or direction.  These are the fools that have been seasoned to know better...but decide in error to try and relive their youth.  Folks, you don't have to be an unseasoned fool to relive your youth.  You just have to use your earned judgement to know what is worth being a fool for.  The young do not have the benefit of experience so it behooves them to fail because it is in failure that they learn the lessons we take great pains to preserve.  Never take all that you have for granted for unweighted foolishness.  On the other side of this pendulum, I've also seen the seasoned play it safe to the point where experience proves too costly to take any chances at all. They give up on learning anything new, starting a new career or taking up a worthy cause.  So long as you have life...live it but live it well.  Use all the God-given wisdom afforded you and jump when you find it worthy.  I will admit that some decisions may be time sensitive but for a wise fool to consider such a thing the reward must be something tangible that can outweigh the risk and I would highly recommend a precautionary parachute...

I knew a young man that fell in love and decided to marry for passion even though there was much chaos in the relationship he chose.  He was young but had the ability to learn quickly from his errors as he was brutally honest and introspective to a fault.  He saw something deeper than the chaos so he did his best to understand himself, to understand the object of his love and by extension...to understand the chaos.  He learned to master the waves that had his marriage close to capsizing.  His need for safety fought his fool until he saw the value of what he had was worthy of his fullness.  The fights became arguments and the arguments became conversations.  His marriage and the object of his love was found worthy of his fool.  Two fools finally became one and lasted 17 years that way. Although the marriage ran its course with a mutual understanding, his family has and will always keep his fool as there is no peril he will not brave for them.  In wisdom...he kept his fool.  He understood its value in this mechanized world where now, even what's deemed "safe" can be wrought with stupidity.  The fool has value but wise fool will always be priceless.  God will always bless the place wherein the fool finds worth...much love...

~Moses Apollo

It's Ok To Be "OK"...

"it's ok..."

Heavy gets light when you get used to carryin it.  Your muscles all adapt to bear the weight and you marvel at your own strength.  Pride won't enter the picture because you're sober-minded enough to know that your strength doesn't exist without the trauma they're forced to endure so it becomes just another day in the life...

You grow knowing you're growing but it doesn't faze you.  While everyone else believes you can take on the world, you know better.  They may be right about you but it doesn't mean a thing.  All you want to do is get through.  All you want to do is hold your stance because you know you have no other choice.  This is your life for now and you are committed to success.  You make no room for anything else because of how important your task is.  You don't even give yourself time to think on anything else because you know you'll have to snap yourself out of it and get back to work...you're on auto-pilot and that's ok.

When it's over you can think back on all that happened and thank God you made it through but there will be no grand parade or anything fancy.  At most you'll find a whisper of thanks that will follow with..."what's next Lord?"  Just always remember that whether you're standing in attention or slouched at ease...it's ok to be "ok"...you're still alive.  Life engenders so much more than summer's sweet or winter's gloom.  See them through with elegance and grace.  I can tell you it's way easier than fighting what has come that you cannot change in the moment.  Much love.

~Moses Apollo

My Politic - A Word by Moe

"Oh give me love over...love over this..."

My politic is quick. It's alive to thrive. A trick of the mind kind to me. Lessons branded into my soul landed past my skin for truth and common sense. My recompense is this foundation station picked up from my youth till now. A culmination of air that brought illumination to know right, left and center don't mean shit without truth. Where judgement is for the weak playin a blame game as they do the same without consequence or care. This common sense of mine wears my scars like fallin stars that need no introduction. I need no gaze or plays for admiration as my station dictates who I am. No need to placate or pander the empty bystander. You ain't got shit to say unless your masters say so. No flow, you lay low, you don't know until your script is ready writ, spit and lit. I've no master save the One teachin all under the sun is vanity.  

My mind is kind to me. The truth I see is free. Quick is my trick...my politic... 

~Moses Apollo

Ch-ch-changes...

It's a good thing to know...

What your muscles respond to.  What you need to do to mobilize fat.  The latest techniques and scientific advancements for all that you want to achieve but experience and wisdom brings it all together for proper use.  I know my body is going through more changes.  I can close my eyes and move less than an inch to know what's advancing towards strength and what is lagging.  I "feel" because I know and I "know" because I listen...deep.  I've laid my foundation solid till it was strong enough to take more...time for more...

If my body is the shadow, my soul is the substance.  Imagine what you could achieve if we just allowed our circumstances to work our inner man the same way.  You can go through much in this life and never grow an inch but then you'd miss the weight of such things and miss out on the strength, power and wisdom you could gain.  Let them work on you as you do the weights.  Trust me...you won't be disappointed...there is wisdom in this.

And always more to come...

~Moses Apollo