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Monday, September 19, 2016

Easy Baby...



There was a time that I purposely let myself go a little to look somewhat normal.  To assuage people from thinking me a slut or even stupid and I thought I was doing the right thing.  I was tired of the crazy that followed me on occasion.  Only problem was, I was seeped in false humility.  Like I should cover up who I really was to be able to less than "larger than life".  Today, I'm back to MY normal.  Looking as best as I can and I am still neither stupid or a slut and I have yet to consider myself "larger than life".  All stupid shit that remains in the eye of the beholder.

You see I was reminded of that on Facebook a bit ago when an older lady implied that I was nothing more than a mindless muscle-bound freak that had no knowledge of the true meaning of beauty simply because I didn't find overweight 13 yr old girls pole dancing sexy.  A comment she immediately retracted but still showed up in my email.  I answered with my usual flair, throwin in a bit of flirtiness in my shit to fluster.  If she had pearls, she snatched them shits.  I showed her a glimpse of myself.  Just as I do with my pictures and poetry.  You all may not believe me but that ain't all of me and that is something very few are really willing to find out.  They go no further than the words or the body but what about the man?  They are too afraid to ruin the fantasy with the reality when the truth is the reality only adds meat to mist.  People are people and the only thing you can control is you so I won't even sweat what they think.  Quick advice: never feel bitterness towards their assumptions as these are usually fueled by stereotypical caricatures presented by the cultures themselves.

I'm done holding back and I'm gonna continue to go as far as I can without this fallacious fear of what I may become or who I may lose in the process.  I know who and what I am so I should only gain but those I lose, I only lose because they thought me one way and never bothered to delve any deeper.  So I think I'll take a different tact this time out...fuck em lol

~Moses Apollo     

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