Well now...

"Nothins gonna change my world..."

You know I wrote a full 5 paragraph piece on something I was talking about today and then it came to me...uh uh.  Nah, that's for another time and maybe even another place so for tonight...no bullshit, no reveals...nothing.  Just a song and a fleeting thought...why the fuck not?

The times they are a changin but I ain't changin with them.  It's so ironic that I will use the phrase "I tend to disappear" even though everyone knows where to find me.  Yet the phrase itself gives me an invisibility in their minds so they just accept it.  So who is really doing the disappearing?  Everyone disappears with the tide and I watch them leave as I usually do.  Nothing different except that some really do fuckin hurt more than others.  I ain't got no control of that so I just let em go

Try it...tell your friends you're goin "off the grid" and see how many still make the effort in tryin to find you.  Most will usually throw up their hands and say "eh, one less to worry about" but some still remember your number is on their contact list.  Some still remember you have email.  My ex Millie jokes that my "fans" will always reach out but when a "fan" does it, they could give two shits about how Im doin.  They just want the answer to another question.

I have everything I need and not enough of what I want.  I think someday I'll truly disappear.  Might sound melodramatic but why the fuck not?  My reasons to exist will always remain but my reasons to be seen and heard are dwindling as it seems no one gives a shit about anything anymore.  In a world where poetry is just a means to an end, where wisdom comes in meaningless sound bites meant to create an emotional response in memes and love ain't nothin but a mindfuck to get someone into bed just to get off...I've got no place here.  It's been creepin up on me slowly and occasionally slappin me across the face.

Don't mind me if I sound bleak but these are my thoughts on this night...fleeting. Why the fuck not?  Yeah so...I'm out...

~Moses Apollo Apolinaris

PS: One last quote from me this night:  To break me is impossible.  To lose me?  That's something else...