Cruise Control...

"I'm so tired, I haven't slept a wink...I'd give you everything I've got for a little peace of mind..."

You know sometimes you go on and on biding your time until the better you're holding out for comes.  You try to keep your mind busy planning and setting things up.  You look at countless houses, cars, furniture and even incidentals that won't add a thing to your "better world".  Waiting for pieces to show that will turn into the better that you had planned for everyone but while you do, you decide to go into a "cruise control" mode.  A mode that allows you to drive straight through to the end without flinching.  Without feeling the time go by so there will never be room for urgency or impatience.  You track it and tell yourself that you're only gonna use twenty percent of your mental energy to catch some scenery along the way.  Eighty percent will stay focused on the road.  Problem is that you have passengers in the car with you that may require more than twenty percent and they soon forget why you're in that mode to begin with...at no fault of their own.  You figure they won't mind because when the better comes, they will understand but most of the time, the road becomes longer and the your desire to stay focused turns into something looking like neglect.  Tonight, I think for the first time, I'm feeling the negative effects of my busy mind and my incessant travel.  I'm so fuckin tired...

  

Pull the fucking car over and remind the one's you love that you're still there.  Otherwise all you meant for their good may turn into something else altogether.

We all have a bright future ahead of us.  Let's make it there without fucking up the present.  Time for some sleep...

~Moses