I Know What I Know...

"...God with us..."

If you haven't figured this out yet, yeah...I know some things.  I have been sitting on this hard floor thinking about topics I could share and a few popped out at me.  One of which "holds" now having been crystallized in conversation.  Some things I could not share with just anybody so with that being said, I am grateful to have such beautiful ears at my disposal...

So having said that, I will say this; "what if" is for children.  "What is" in truth, is all that really matters.  Why?  Because "what if" will keep you in a state of senseless distraction while "what is" collapses from neglect all around you.  This "dream" of the perfect life "if you only..." is a fairy tale.  It is meant to keep you questioning the destiny that stands unfulfilled due to lack of motivated mobility.  You wind up trudging along without the same tenacity that you would have had if you planned to be where you are.  Guess what?  You are where you are for a reason.  You are who you are for a reason.  All the blessings you have are there because you travailed the road you did and if you change anything along that road then think for a minute...

All the bad may be gone...but all the good along with it.  Deal with that for a second and let it sink in.  The children that you're proud of are gone.  That wind of pain that fueled your artistry no longer moves your soul and all the wisdom that you acquired is non-existent.  You are now empty.  What if?  That question will never haunt me again.  I've learned that my pain is my pride because I've come through alive and better for it.  Don't ever ask me that question.  Being who I am I will tell you the truth and it won't be pretty.  Be blessed with all you are and move forward with peace understanding that God had a plan all along.  It may have been a plan you never understood but rest assured it was a plan that was way more than anything you could come up with on your own. 

As for me, I will never trade who I am, all I have and all I know for the shot at an alternate universe.  No, not me.  Looking back, I know that God was with me every step of the way.  He guided me at my best and helped me up at my worst.  My life today is the product of His love and I would have it no other way.

Be blessed, be happy if you can but above all else...move ahead in peace...knowing all the while, you are all that you were meant to be...

Love,

~Apollo