The Confinement Of Commodity...

Have you ever had an idea no one has thought of or an idea very few were aware of?  Have you ever mastered such an idea to the place of it affording you all that is "grandiose" in your mind?  All you have to do is pull the trigger now...

I know this place.  From the primal to the technical and in truth...I fear it's power.

I grew up watching my father make women smile without much effort.  Just an impeccable charm he used without even noticing.  Well...I noticed.  I was a witness to it's effect on both sexes.  It was both impressive and dangerous at the same time but like it or not, it would become something I would inherit.  To be able to, with a slight smile, move someone to go the extra mile is a powerful thing.  Something I learned not to take lightly along the way.  For a man, this is a commodity.  For a woman, it is a crutch.  Why?  Because for a woman to use her wiles is akin to a man using his strength.  The weak man only knows strength.  He has to learn sensuality...a tool that finds it's origin within the power of emotion.  He doesn't know how to use his mind to control a situation.  He flies off the handle.  His muscles intimidate.  His trapezoid muscles flair inducing fear and if that doesn't work, he will take the next step towards violent action.  Think about that for a minute...

When you find yourself resorting to your basic instinct (lower than all you have been elevated to "learn"), you are in effect...debased.  It's not a question of "double standard".  It's a question of nature vs nurture.  For the initiated, this makes sense.  For the uninitiated?  Sorry...can't help you on this one.

I will say this though.  A woman that has learned to use her wit as opposed to her body is one of the most powerful things I have yet to see and that quiet power is fuckin sexy as shit.  Most people don't see this because they can't see past the "visual".  These women usually wind up perplexing men.  They are drawn by energy as opposed to visuals.  Fucks em up lol  Yep, it's that strong.

I have in the past few years been able to create something from nothing.  Convincing myself now that there is nothing I cannot do BUT it always comes at a price.  My limiting factor?  I am a father and accountable risk is never an option.  "Small and unseen" means frustrated survival and though "big and fast" may be way more exciting...it runs it's course with too much risk involved.

Since Oct of 2012 I've been planning a thing.  Something from nothing?  Yes, I do have a grandiose idea with very little risk this time...with a safety net to boot.  Where no one else is effected but me but in truth I think that this time around...I fear it's success.

Many lives will change...

~Apollo

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