Thirteen year old gets up in the middle of night to go the bathroom. He splashes water on his face and he straightens up to face the mirror. Looking back at him... he sees someone else. It was him... only later in life. His face didn't show much signs of aging but you could see it. Yet what stood out the most was that one side of hair was long and white, while the other remained short and dark. Signaling a duality he would face as a man. He stood looking at it for awhile. Moving his head in and out of frame... making sure it was him. He woke up in a cold sweat and just sat in the sofa bed he slept in... contemplating what it meant. It was one of THE most vivid dreams he would ever have in his life. I used to think I knew what it meant but maybe there's more to it than simply having a profound grasp of "wisdom" at a later age. What more could there be? I guess we'll soon find out won't we?
Folks, it is true that we never see or are even shown the full picture. We oftentimes see "outcomes" when dealing with something on its way and more often than not... it is to make sure we don't mess with "time" when it comes to such things. If I knew how I would get "there", my humanity would push to get there sooner... or I'd try to alter things to get to what I'd view as "better". Ruining what was shown to be "the perfect outcome". Sometimes we are shown glimpses of the road and when we are, it's usually for reassurance or guidance into an outcome that any way you try to slice it... will take on the range from harmless to beautiful. All left up to us. It works the same way in the warning. I can see a bad "outcome" and what is needed to look out for to avoid it. I've found those tricky because sometimes bias gets mixed in so that must be included in "the telling". It's so much easier when it's just about you. Sometimes I hesitate in telling someone when it's about them and to me... that is a "disobedience". We aren't given these things for fun, or because we are "special" or because we learned some new trick that makes us "powerful". "Giftings" are GRANTED for a reason and some are passed on after they've been granted through family line. In either case... stay responsible with them. I will always eventually speak to who I need to tell something to but I'm almost always concerned with how I'll be seen and I shouldn't. I'm just not lookin to be a "guru" or seen as "otherworldy". I don't float when I walk and I have issues like anyone else. As you all have seen for yourselves, I'm very much a man with a history to prove it. I've just learned to say "it comes with the gig" on many things but especially this. Humans gonna human you dig? And to be absolutely and 100% crystal clear... ALL of this comes from My Lord. He gets ALL honor and glory for all I am and all I hope to become... period. It's just that with me, it's never business as usual and how you envision whatever conventional box you try to stow me in... it won't do the job. Your box will always be too freakin small you dig?
Anyway, allow me to explain some things:
Imagine stepping outside of time and noticing yourself floating in space. You look down and see what looks like a rat maze floating just a few feet away... except this one's for humans. You see where the rat enters and all the infinite choices that shift the maze but you also notice... there are only two ways to end. One way "out" and one way "through". What we all want is to get "through" into the "so much more" on the other side of that door. The real goal is to navigate the maze in the best way possible. Navigating every decision based on your truest internal design will always produce the best outcome inspired onward by destiny. Humans are "destined" based on our "design" (not to be confused with "fate"). Which is precisely why it is crucial that we come to the truest awareness of who we are... warts and all. I must also include that failure and trials are part of the process as once the lessons are learned and the trials completed, they are then refined into what becomes the most poignant parts in the fabric of "our best". Never accepting we should settle for less than what we were meant to become and guess what? No matter hold old you are... that process never ends. When you come to understand that there is no limit to our "learning" and "becoming", you can accept & acknowledge how far you've come while understanding you still have a ways to go. This reality and mindset leaves no room for arrogance or false piety. No matter how many "gifts" we are given, they pale in comparison to what we "become" at heart. In character, in love... in all things beautifully God and beautifully human. The more we "become" at heart... the more we are entrusted with. "The last shall be first"... remember that? Sorry but you can't that fake one. THAT one demands it be true at HEART... you can't hide it and you can't fake it folks. Now, you can fake it for some that don't know any better to boost your ego on virtue but to the ones where it matters most... they will see right through that BS. Keep it real or don't keep it at all...
When I started this one, I didn't know where it would go but I guess it's just another one of those pieces someone, somewhere needed to read. I'm out...
~moses apollo
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