Complacency In The Cope...

"the sun is up...but we're still asleep..."

~the sun king

I see you drowning in a lake that represents illness, inner turmoil and heavier than normal relationship issues...and I cannot save you. I point to a rope that is tied to a boat but you say to me "it's ok...I've learned how to float". I cringe in frustration because there is nothing more I can do. I know I and others will lose you on this road. I know the eventualities of this road because we all MUST learn to "float" above our own waters but if we become too content without moving towards what's next...we will remain in a space that provides a false sense of security. A complacency will set in that can easily take the place of that contentment without one even noticing. These waters are acidic and they will eat away at you slowly if you don't find a way to drain them or get to shore but some get numb to the corrosion until it's too late. They either go mad, cold of heart...or finally get caught by the illness they ignored. You see they convince themselves that a certain level of "peace" is enough to sustain them. It may have been so but what they don't understand is that there is a purpose to that peace. It is meant to clear their mind and heart so they could find and implement a solution...at peace.

When I see a loved one in this position, I want to yell. My frustration becomes unparalleled and like my mother, I've been known to lash out like an alarm at a real fire. Usually either calm, jovial or even-keeled but this can take me "there". Sometimes it's taken wrong but I can't worry about that when a life or lives are at stake. In this, I understand my mother all too well and it is one so-called "flaw" I welcome in those that love me. They love me enough to risk me no longer liking them for my own sake...and to me, that ain't a "deal breaker". 

Listen to me my beautiful people: I applaud you if you've come to "terms" with whatever you've gone through or are going through now but don't ever allow yourself to get caught in the trap this necessary step can become. Receive and live in the peace it provides but do not allow it to sedate you. You still have the last step to take that may involve other steps. They can include trips to the mirror...or a designated physician.   

I have an issue that today is classified as a problem. Even through all I've gone through...I STILL care. I'm out...

~moses apollo