What Of It?

There is no greater constant than how I see love.  There is nothing greater than that for me since I came to know it through my King.  I don't care what religion you subscribe to or what your heaven looks like.  In my case, I learned how to love through the power of the sacrifice of Christ.  The many times I fell short and the innumerable times I've turned my back, He has always shown me immeasurable grace.  Ours is a friendship that has spanned the course of child, student, teacher, minister to finally...friend.  I to Him am one of those He refers to when He says "I have this friend, he's a good egg with issues but those issues never prevented my ability to teach him well".  Folks, I found the perfect purity of love in Him and have since been blessed to understand how to translate that love into human terms.  Sounds academic for something as lofty as love huh?  Yet it is the way of most things.  Everything has it's engine and if you want to master anything, take it apart and find out how and why it works.

You start with something perfect and pure operating as it should.  Study it and figure out how it is meant to work.  Then you look to apply it by looking at real world examples in humans.  You begin to see how something with a mark of 10 on the purity scale could drop substantial points once infected by human frailty.  Love is, at best, impure among us mortals so our best is to understand it in it's purity and come as close to it as we can.  The closest I ever could come was in the heart of the human parent.  I could never understand the many times my mother showed grace to us when we didn't deserve it.  A logical mind would dismiss a soul that has treated them badly but there are times when love requires us to transcend the logic we live by.  She would tell us, "So long as I have a roof over my head...you will too...no matter what" and she has proven her love time and time again.  When I became a parent, this love crystallized into something palpable and expected until now...it has become commonplace for me.

Yet I find myself at times torn between the love I live and the unrealistic expectations placed upon that love.  Some assume that love can overcome consequence but I will tell you now that if you smack me across the face to test my love, I will continue to love you after I have smacked you back twice as hard .  To believe that one deserves love simply because it is professed to them irrespective of what they do or say is the epitome of arrogance.  Forgiveness is plentiful in love and comes even without asking but consequence is something forgiveness can never blot out.  Everything has it's cause and effect.  Oftentimes I am perplexed to see some get upset when my stance rightfully changes towards them due to something occurring.  It makes no difference if what is occurring is good or bad because most times, it's just life as has been the case with me many a time.  If it requires me to move, then I must.  I'll give you an example: You do your best to build a ledge for three to fit comfortably but wait, the person you are building it with doesn't understand why it should be built for three so you digress and this beautiful ledge for two is built.  Three people cannot stand on a ledge built for two.  Build it for three and I'll be fine but don't expect me to hang on for dear life as I'm shoved off with nowhere to stand.  It works for no one.  I may find myself having to move but rest assured...I am still somewhere close by.  My love lives without rules.  Me on the other hand?  Yeah, I have rules...

To those that have known me for years...I have proven it.  They can attest that no matter how long between the times we've spoken or seen each other, there is never been or ever shall be a change in my heart for them.  Even in the midst of disagreements and misunderstandings I am not one to quit on anyone that hasn't quit on me.  So if I ever professed my love for you...understand that it is a real and constant thing.  How I choose to manifest that love will always be dependant on the circumstances before me but make no mistake...I will always be pretty damn close.  In the end, all can change, my love will not...accept it.  Now whether one does or doesn't, it is the only thing I cannot control...so I don't even try anymore...neither should you...much love...

~Moses