Between The Letters...

As increments begin to settle into my heart, there is but to stand and watch certain pieces of my life play out on a panoramic screen that surrounds me. Past, present and future all play out before me like a biopic whose soundtrack includes sultry epics mixed in with frequencies designed for introspection. Where my only intermission comes at the staring of my feet. Feet that have stood even when they shouldn't have given all I have seen. Attached to a body, soul and spirit that has become numb to its own pain and grief. Parts of steel at whose center beats a heart of flesh fueled by faith, strength and fury. Whose relief is found in the taste of passion and in the incremental forward motion that creeps up unawares from pleasant time to time. 

To see it all and have none to comprehend. To feel it all and come just a few stanzas shy of articulation. To eat a full course meal and never get full. To imbibe on the finest wine and not be able to get drunk. To live and love without limits in a world of limits set by men and women hell bent on keeping their limited power. Limiting love, joy, peace and all things that bring us closer to God and each other. Keeping us all busy in a rat race of inconsequence while the consequential slowly dies off in us all. Creating a place where AI will soon become sentient enough to become humanity's guide to emotional and spiritual intelligence. Recycling the debunked as something new and presenting dashes of counterfeited truth sprinkled over scripted lies as secret knowledge. Yet in all this that I see before me... I stand anyway. I love anyway. I care anyway and I believe... anyway.  

Why? Because there is always hope. There is always a chance where there is life and what is lost only needs the will to be found again. Keep your hand extended out to reach and your heart satiated and as full as can be. I have no doubt the "one day" you've been believing for will come and when those days arrive for you... I'll do my best to celebrate by your side. Till then... hold fast my love. Shut out the noise. Look around and find the beauty that surrounds you... use the blessings you find to cultivate the hope you need to make it through the days and nights ahead. I have been shown much on my panoramic screen. From ashen surfaced skin to a spirit engulfed in light and everything in between. I could've closed my eyes and gone home... but I decided to stay instead. Hope is a powerful thing... I'm out

~moses apollo of apolinaris