Take a snapshot of who and where you are right now. Look at the pic and ask yourself if that snapshot represents who you are holistically. Does it show all you've been through? Can someone take a look at it and come to the right conclusions? Probably not... now ask yourself why.
The wisest among us that suffer from extreme passion will tell you that only way they have ever learned anything that stuck was through trial and error. Book knowledge had to be proven before it became conviction. It had to be etched into soul by experience. The stubbornness of the impassioned soul is legendary in love and all else that requires "the press" but this "feature" is also a liability in that in order for it's bearer to learn, it must be humbled and that requires taking it to a near breaking point. Advice... isn't always enough. That pic you took? Was more than likely you in transition from the stupor of error into the sobriety of wisdom. How do I know? Look at me ;-)
Almost everything I know came from errors committed. Some external...most internal, but most if not all were followed up by a fluid conclusion through introspection that produced a palpable change. All I thought I was so certain of as a youth has either been refined or slapped away by the pain of trial... it's life my people. So whether in behavior, perspective or both... change through trial remains settled because it now carries a narrative of scars. Do you know why I still believe in those that have failed? Because I refuse to judge them on the snapshot and have come to know them enough holistically to understand that this "error" is something they may have needed to finally solidify another needed piece of their character's puzzle. The danger is found in the reality that they can either fall into despair or rebuild to build anew with all they've learned from what they've just come through and it sucks to watch them crash land into their own mirrors of introspection. In such cases, all you can do is do your best to lift them up again. Even if they've tossed you away or set you aside... keep prayin for them and do what you can from a distance if you can't get close. I've great training in this with my own flesh and blood on extreme levels. Friends and lovers ain't nothin compared to that...
So for my friends that, like myself, "suffer from extreme passion": if you find yourself crash landing on that mirror after an error, understand that you had to get there somehow. If it took this error to drag you to the place you most needed to be... consider yourself blessed that you now have a chance to learn from it all. To grow from it all. Yeah it can hurt sometimes but it's how we are designed to learn. Don't fool yourself... all our "great" comes balanced out with some "bad" we have to refine. We may not be able to cut it out of us but through trial and error we can learn to integrate it so that it will serve our "great". Dust yourself off... and begin again renewed...
As for me, allow me to brag on my Lord a bit. I went and took a follow-up MRI of my heart and the results were nothing short of amazing. I'd say "miraculous" but I've seen my Lord do way greater than this. Ever since leaving the hospital, I really had no doubt... until the week before. It's always the freakin same. You psych yourself up for game day while training and you're sure of the outcome. Game day comes along and you start second guessing your prep lol In either case I showed "qualitatively improved" function on BOTH sides, doubled my VEF % (input/output) and all fibrosis is gone...yeah I'm gonna be around a long while and NOTHING and NO ONE can or will change that. Weapons are formed against me all the time but I've been promised they will NEVER prosper. So when I say "My Lord is good to me", I can say this without a doubt. Hey...it's been etched into my soul you dig? ;-) I'm out...
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