It continues even outside the scope of what we thought was a fixed point. Beyond the scope of internal growth. Causality, action/reaction and relationship dynamics...all play a part in our evolutionary process. What do I mean? Consider your children or even yourself as a child hitting milestones in life. Milestones that seem to draw you away from friends or family you seem to outgrow. Graduating high school, getting that first degree, your first true love or even moving into your new apartment...all milestones that require loss of baggage in the form of people, places or things. In some cases the outgrowth is real and tangible but in others...it ain't always so cut and dry.
I remember the day I had to take my boys to school for the first time. After taking care of them as infants and toddlers, I now had to drop them off in a strange place. Not knowing if they would feel sad at my absence, if they'd eaten all their food or if their playtime made them laugh. How would these strangers know them well enough to comfort them. Though two years apart, I cried both times and called my then-wife to complain about how much I felt like a sucker for doing so. It felt like a loss but the hard reality was...it was simply evolution.
The transition from one path that diverges into two is probably one of the hardest to quantify. Sometimes we see it comin but we are seldom ever prepared enough to get through it unscathed in one form or another. We get so used to the path we're on, we plan for a future we were shown based on it alone. Not knowing that possibly staying on that path would keep us incomplete for the future we were expecting to materialize. It's a tricky thing to see in the moment of divergence but when the dust of it's overwhelming nature settles...it soon becomes clear enough.
You weren't wrong to see the future you saw. You were only wrong in how you thought you would get there. Destiny is destiny. It's like a lava flow that will burn through everything to create a better path towards the end you were designed for. A design that will always pull you in the direction you are suited for...ready or not. Your heart will show you and your mind will follow. The trick is knowing when your mind is jumping ahead of itself and that is never an easy thing to see, accept...or even course correct. Choices, misdirection, arguments and other incidentals will force the evolutionary process forward. After doing all we can to make sense of it all, all we can do is accept their outcome knowing something profound. What is meant to be...will be.
I know enough to hold fast to what I "know" in my heart to be true and that will never change. The process and the choices others decide to take is out of our control. All I can do is trust my Lord to get me there...and that is enough to keep me at peace with all I see happening around me. The dust is settling and though some things may still look grim, my heart is advancing past the shock of it all into a place of acceptance. There are some you know you've outgrown and yet there are others that needed to venture into a path without you to eventually become what you both will need in a day that was always destined to arrive.
I sail the skies and trust the wind...even as I sit in the eye of the storm. Much love...my beautiful people. Be at peace...
~moses apollo
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