To let you know what it means to be human. It is to fail and accept failure in others. Usually receiving that same acceptance in return but sometimes...not at all. Being human, when there is care and love for someone you will in fact inquire about their well being, their state of mind and just overall care. Irrespective of what the situation has prevented from happening. Irrespective of closed lines of communication that have been shut off for good enough reason.
I saw someones town being demolished by a storm and I got worried enough to reach out...yet no answer. What difference does that make? What does all it all mean? It means I must now see this person as someone I can longer be human to since this has happened more than once. Not in a hurtful way, but in ways that will illicit the "I don't give a sh*t" response. After reaching out a few times, this is where my sense is leading me to. To a place where this person shouldn't even deserve a second thought. It may be callous but it's how I feel when she can't even say "I'm OK". I would have even accepted a "f*ck off". That at least would've given an indication she was OK.
In this instance, I have been able to hold on to my humanity through care, prayer and plain old understanding. Three things that allow you to love from a distance. This last incident has diminished my humanity in this specific regard and there is nothing I can do to prevent it. As such, there will now be as yet another measure of "letting go". I will be human to those that accept my humanity but to those that don't?...They can eat sh*t
The last link in the chain...broken
I saw someones town being demolished by a storm and I got worried enough to reach out...yet no answer. What difference does that make? What does all it all mean? It means I must now see this person as someone I can longer be human to since this has happened more than once. Not in a hurtful way, but in ways that will illicit the "I don't give a sh*t" response. After reaching out a few times, this is where my sense is leading me to. To a place where this person shouldn't even deserve a second thought. It may be callous but it's how I feel when she can't even say "I'm OK". I would have even accepted a "f*ck off". That at least would've given an indication she was OK.
In this instance, I have been able to hold on to my humanity through care, prayer and plain old understanding. Three things that allow you to love from a distance. This last incident has diminished my humanity in this specific regard and there is nothing I can do to prevent it. As such, there will now be as yet another measure of "letting go". I will be human to those that accept my humanity but to those that don't?...They can eat sh*t
The last link in the chain...broken
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