"...wish it well and close your eyes..."
I feel the need to write about this song. A song I've been listening to a lot lately. It's a very "telling" piece I heard for the first time a bit over a year ago under hard circumstances. I remember where and when I heard it but looking back at all that has taken place, I understand it more today than when it was introduced to me.
Generically, it is a song about "letting go" of a dream. A dream that has been planned and worked for. Desired with all the passion and sacrifice you could muster. Something you want "badly". Yet as life would have it, sometimes you miss something in all your planning. A piece, a cog...something that assists in making everything work. When you find that piece missing, it's time to rearrange things...no matter how much it hurts. Otherwise you run the risk of an incomplete and failed dream. There are pieces of me that are great but there are pieces of me that are lacking as well. Anyone can tell me "don't be so hard yourself...nobodies perfect" but the only way to really become more than you are is to admit where you are failing in life. Not as something that obsessively tears you down but as a way to set goals and markers that will support real growth.
I can hope beyond hope that one would focus on the "great" alone but reality dictates "holistically". The "lacking" can and will exhaust the "great". I saw that happening in the eyes of someone I loved...it almost crushed me. There were other reasons why things happened the way they did and those lay buried in forgotten memory but the one that has stayed with me is this one; I was incomplete.
We both got a kiss goodbye...
What is my lesson in all this? My dreams are big but there are missing pieces. I've laid my dreams down until I have everything needed for them to prosper. It sucks to have to refocus and re-tune your mind but if you really want something bad enough...you will find a way to acquire all that is needed. Gonna do my best to get all that sh*t now...
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