You know some people can go through this world "pretending" certain truths about themselves don't exist. They hold to perspectives that hinder them because to actually change would mean discomfort. I'm not talking about bullshit change where they just go through the what or "the motions". Anybody can go through the motions and stop a thing. It takes maturity to accept the why (reasons for the motions) because that will provide motivation to change that endures. I hate it when people tell me they "get it" and then turn around using the same tired discounted arguments to continue in roads that lead to nowhere. I'm sick of it and in truth makes me want to stop teaching altogether. What use is it to give out what you know to supposedly attentive ears when they are just attentive to appease you. As soon as you are out of view and far from earshot, its business as usual. Thank be to God, He sees all things. Please allow me to provide an example...If some asshole that is in a relationship propositions you don't say "we'll see"...you say "f**k off!!!". Saying that is the "what". Why? because if you don't he will always think he has a shot and what that says about you is even worse. Get the shit together people please!!!
Yeah so apparently...I passed all tests someone thought I needed to. You see they needed proof that I was all I said I was and now that they have it...it still don't mean shit. I know who I am and can detail myself to you. I will tell you things you've seen in me that are negative but were afraid to say for fear that I would rip your fu**ing head off...I'm too real to get upset at a truth about myself. If you're wrong, I'll correct you but I wont get pissed. I live in a real world where everyone wants something...including me. Everyone has a motive and its usually selfish. Some of those selfish motives are healthy but some keep people in states of dependency they can never get out of until they admit there is a problem. I am tired of the bullshit ambiguity people rest in because they don't want to make decisions. Make a decision and stick to it...leave no wiggle room. Be someone determined and definitive. Open doors all the way or shut them with locks throwing away the key. You leave doors open so you can change your mind anytime you want and run to wherever your needs take you even if that includes misrepresenting your motives...just for the sake of feeding your "selfish dependency" or as some might put it..."just for me".
I have come to the conclusion that all of the realest people I know are f**ked up in one way or another...everyone is. Yet what separates the real from the fake are those willing to see their deficiencies to make solid changes. They are consistent in this. They are solid and stable in this endeavor. They may fail at times but they get back up because they know and understand the need to. Their perspective goes unwavered. They don't run back to an old perspective because changing it was just too hard. They change and become better...more real. This quality in women gets me like you wouldn't believe...the pursuit to improve. That only means I will love you more later. Some people you watch and find less and less to love because they never change. Some people you watch, see how consistent they are and find more and more to love...more and more to admire. They evolve into something wonderful because even with set-backs they never give up trying. This is a quality worthy of pursuit and one I will never pass up or give up on myself. I'm tired of the bullshit people...I'm tired.
Yeah so apparently...I passed all tests someone thought I needed to. You see they needed proof that I was all I said I was and now that they have it...it still don't mean shit. I know who I am and can detail myself to you. I will tell you things you've seen in me that are negative but were afraid to say for fear that I would rip your fu**ing head off...I'm too real to get upset at a truth about myself. If you're wrong, I'll correct you but I wont get pissed. I live in a real world where everyone wants something...including me. Everyone has a motive and its usually selfish. Some of those selfish motives are healthy but some keep people in states of dependency they can never get out of until they admit there is a problem. I am tired of the bullshit ambiguity people rest in because they don't want to make decisions. Make a decision and stick to it...leave no wiggle room. Be someone determined and definitive. Open doors all the way or shut them with locks throwing away the key. You leave doors open so you can change your mind anytime you want and run to wherever your needs take you even if that includes misrepresenting your motives...just for the sake of feeding your "selfish dependency" or as some might put it..."just for me".
I have come to the conclusion that all of the realest people I know are f**ked up in one way or another...everyone is. Yet what separates the real from the fake are those willing to see their deficiencies to make solid changes. They are consistent in this. They are solid and stable in this endeavor. They may fail at times but they get back up because they know and understand the need to. Their perspective goes unwavered. They don't run back to an old perspective because changing it was just too hard. They change and become better...more real. This quality in women gets me like you wouldn't believe...the pursuit to improve. That only means I will love you more later. Some people you watch and find less and less to love because they never change. Some people you watch, see how consistent they are and find more and more to love...more and more to admire. They evolve into something wonderful because even with set-backs they never give up trying. This is a quality worthy of pursuit and one I will never pass up or give up on myself. I'm tired of the bullshit people...I'm tired.
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