Sometimes responsibility means doing things you don't want to do for the sake of that which you are responsible for...or yourself. It's one thing to be hard on yourself but when you have to be hard on the ones you love deeply...it's no easy task. It may seem to flow easy but what people don't see is how much it really takes out of me. How much it drains. It is something that you have to take a deep breath for before it's let out...it's tough. You would think that watching me administer criticism that it's something I revel in when in fact the truth is I'd rather just be loving on them instead. It's something I do not want to do but my love demands it. My love frustrates me to do so and the reality is if I didn't care I wouldn't say or do a thing. I love my family enough to make them uncomfortable from time to time but it breaks me every time...
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