On the week of June 30th, I went to the ER via ambulance due to shortness of breath. I had thought it was a hiatal hernia...instead, they told me I had heart failure. I was holding water everywhere because my heart was having trouble pumping it out. I was admitted in the hospital for a week and in that week, I had lost about 20 lbs of water from the Lasix (diuretic) they were giving me. I went from 230 bloated to about 208 lean. They ran multiple tests because they coudn't figure out how that had happened or how...I was still alive. Since I've been out, the tests continue, but they've all but given up on tryin to find out the "why". They're just lookin to help me improve it's function. Here's the capper though: All the patients that walk into the hospital in my "condition" wind up getting worse...I only improved lol Since the hospital, they expected me to get even worse (as is the norm) and return...I've only improved even more. Training, sleeping and eating better. My cardiologist used the word remarkable in my follow-up visit. See...according to the medical community, I wasnt supposed to look like "me". Nor was I supposed to be training again just as I was before. They had to admit that it was possible that my health regimen kept me from a) something way worse and b) was helping aid in my recovery. He said he's never seen anything like it.
Am I Superman? No...maybe Batman but Superman? No lol My health regime? Sure, but THE one major component everyone overlooks is the cog to my ALL...My Lord. Turns out He's not only made me impenetrable to the spiritual bullets some folk like to waste their time sending my way (yes...I see them) but them physical ones don't stand a chance either. I am way too spiritually grounded about all this stuff lol I am more than grateful for the choice He gave me and the grace He shows me daily and I KNOW He ain't done yet. I'm just about done with the recovery mode and am now diving into My Lords "razzle dazzle" mode. Oh they ain't seen nothin yet ;-) Get ready for the impossible made possible...
As for my mindset? Crystalized. My heart? Bigger still...just way more contemplative. Listening to my minds' advice a bit more. Not the bitter parts...the realistic parts.
Acknowledging certain truths that I've not acted on internally out of fear I might be wrong. Well, after all I've come through and all I've seen and have come to accept...I will no longer be allowing my heart to deny what is evident. I just have to settle them in my heart and THAT...is always the hardest part of all. Anyway...time to put a nice bow on this recovery. I ask that you all (if anyone is still out there lol) keep me in prayer. We warriors need them too you know? I'm out...
~moses apollo
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