The Purposed Soul...

"...when I look at the stars...I feel like myself..."

How many times have you heard it..."there's something special about you".  How many times have you dismissed it until you saw it for yourself?  On this day a man I know was told by a self-professed "clairvoyant" that has apparently been "watching him" for years that she sees a halo around his head.  It didn't inspire confidence that she had the smell of alcohol on her breath or that she told his ex that she was so good at fucking that she would "fuck herself if she could".  That's a quote folks.  Now it sounds funny but he's heard it several times in his life from both the sane and those some might consider "insane".  The sane are more careful with it because they calculate reactions whereas the "insane" or impaired just don't care.  Still...what exactly does it all mean?

I can tell you one thing.  The more he heard it, the greater the weight of it all was felt.  You see, he knew what it really meant but he reluctantly came to embrace it.  Now in embracing it, did he deem himself "special"?  Did all this mean that he was greater or better than us?  Short answer is...hell no.  The hard truth of it all was quite the opposite as it actually means that he was made to serve.  To "serve" folks.  Not to be given some title that means nothing.  Not to Lord over another.  Not to seek praise or accolades for his supposed "halo" or "crown".  I marvel at men who carry the title of minister as though it was some sort of badge of honor due respect when the literal translation of minister is "servant".  Even those called to the greatest office must understand this if they are to be truly effective.  Understanding that if the greatest Servant that ever lived is to be an example then they that are called are nothing more than what an important moment in time calls them to be.  Nothing more...nothing less.  Understanding this reality requires brutal honesty and that doesn't mean a virtue signalling false humility.  False humility forces one to artificially minimize their strengths.  True humility acknowledges one's strength but accepts their place in line with gratitude.  For the purpose soul...this is paramount.  Allow me to explain...  

Folks, every purposed soul I've known has a message and they came to find that message in the story of their lives.  A brutally honest panoramic view of all the lessons learned that God has used to carve out the soul they house today.  They found that message inside and once they did they began to hear and speak in the voice needed that correlated to that message.  It could be in speech, in song, in writing or it can even manifest itself in the simplest deed.  As a believer, God facilitates this by allowing one to find their strengths.  Although not the sort one would imagine.  We often think of strengths in terms of obvious talents and sometimes this will be the case but there are in fact...greater strengths.  Strengths tailored to both the message and the voice.  Strengths that become clearer through one's personalized experience and once all this is flowing as it should, all that will be of consequence is that you did as you felt you should.  You heeded the pull and that is all that will truly matter...

I've known great orators that mimicked those that have inspired them until the truth of who they were found the speech patterns coinciding with their message.  I've known singers that sounded just like their idols but fell short until they found the singular voice that flowed from their spirit and I've known poets to emulate their favorites until they found the rhythm they needed to convey the passion in the phrase.  They came to understand the most important element.  That the listener or audience was less important than what they had to say because if they were truly "purposed", they understood to trust what was inside as opposed to what anyone thought of how or what they were saying.  They just "knew" it was for the listener as much as it was meant...for themselves.  I look at Dylan, The Beatles, The Doors...all artists that wrote music never meant to be commercial but somehow made it to the hearts they were meant to touch because they decided to express their brutal truth.  You'all gettin how this works yet?  The purposed are given...to give.  Yet they can only give...what they've been given.  Sounds Buddhalicious but you get what I'm saying.  Imagine all you could do trusting what God has graced you with.  To express in creativity or in daily life what you have been set aside to give.  All the greats broke the designated rules to "success" because success was never their aim.  They just knew to express their truth and for the purposed soul...that is everything.  For all that we carry that was once for our benefit, is now meant to benefit another.  I mean damn...isn't that why we're here?  I think so...much love

~Moses Apollo