I was told tonight..."I wish I could be as strong as you..." by someone I have emulated my own example of strength from. Oh how that made me feel. Makes me wonder though. Am I strong because I don't mind pain?...my threshold is high. Or am I strong because I choose to never run away from a challenge?...I can be stupid like that. In either case, yes...I am a strong man. I choose to keep believing even when others won't. I choose to love even after all evidence has vanished and I choose to keep pressing on even after the brick wall in front of me has been fortified.
All I know is that the reason I was called strong, the very thing people see me as strong for doing...has me in pain. A pain I didn't expect to last this long. I know the reasons for the pain and I also know there is absolutely nothing I can do to prevent it. I must suffer through it and pray it passes in time. I will do so even as the new level in my evolution takes shape. I will be better...it will be obvious. In the meantime...let the tears fall and the suffering continue if need be. I would rather suffer as a lonely king than suffer humiliation at the hands of someone that believes they're cute because they "get away" with sh*t. My value is way to high to suffer bullsh*t...especially of that kind.
So a little advice...always think in terms of "what will I be willing to overlook?" when it comes to choosing a mate because the truth is everyone you meet will find a way to disappoint you. It's only a matter of time and gravity of said disappointment. Will you be able to look past their "desiginated by you, flaw" or is it enough to break the deal?...try to find out early folks. A bit of wisdom from an old soul with lots of disappointment under his belt. Let that be one of the many guidelines in your selection process...I'm out...
All I know is that the reason I was called strong, the very thing people see me as strong for doing...has me in pain. A pain I didn't expect to last this long. I know the reasons for the pain and I also know there is absolutely nothing I can do to prevent it. I must suffer through it and pray it passes in time. I will do so even as the new level in my evolution takes shape. I will be better...it will be obvious. In the meantime...let the tears fall and the suffering continue if need be. I would rather suffer as a lonely king than suffer humiliation at the hands of someone that believes they're cute because they "get away" with sh*t. My value is way to high to suffer bullsh*t...especially of that kind.
So a little advice...always think in terms of "what will I be willing to overlook?" when it comes to choosing a mate because the truth is everyone you meet will find a way to disappoint you. It's only a matter of time and gravity of said disappointment. Will you be able to look past their "desiginated by you, flaw" or is it enough to break the deal?...try to find out early folks. A bit of wisdom from an old soul with lots of disappointment under his belt. Let that be one of the many guidelines in your selection process...I'm out...
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