.

.

Saturday, September 27, 2025

Salt To My Seasoning...

"but I can see you, your brown skin shining in the sun
you got your hair combed back & your sunglasses on, baby
I can tell you, my love for you will still be strong
after the boys of summer have gone..."

Life is funny sometimes. A bunch of things can hit all at once & you can be so overwhelmed, that you'll miss the message. This time around, I thank God I haven't.

It has been a part of my code to keep my distance from women I've had the privileged of connecting with once they began entertaining another, as they and I have always been free to do. It avoids being accused of being the impetus for break-ups, jealousies or arguments on the part of their significant other. I kept to boundaries imposed by my own sense of honor but I have come to the conclusion that the price for such a thing may have been too high. There were times when my presence could have gone a long way but my code wouldn't allow it. Even just being there for them... it's what I'm made of. I can no longer deny being who I am just because someone will take it the wrong way. In short, I've come to the conclusion that this is not a "me problem" & for far too long, I have held that it was.

To a tee, almost all of these "men" I stayed away for turned out to be duds. "Summer boys" that came & went with agendas. Due to this, I feel foolish showing honor to the dishonorable. Letting down those I loved for something that couldn't even survive on its own. Well... I'm done doin that. A friend recently needed me & I decided that I could not turn her away. If her "man" had a problem with it... it was no longer my issue. My issue was her. He ain't got nothin to do with me, nor do I have anything to do with him... something he should consider himself blessed for.

From now on, I will allow them to set the boundaries they want (as always... without judgment) but it won't be comin from me anymore. I held to discretion in every situation & this will be no different if that's what they should choose. I will be all that I will be & more. Now folks, you can take this as an amendment to my code but you can also take this as a lesson. What lesson? That it doesn't matter how seasoned you are. A man or woman set in their ways will never grow beyond the limits of their mindset. Even one as open & free as mine can be amended for the better. Besides, I can always add a bit more salt to my seasoning. I am who & what I am... I'm out

~moses apollo

 

No comments:

Post a Comment