Phoenix Fallen...

Ugly duckling grows up with the notion that because she was deemed a "4" on an artificial scale, that for the sake of her self-esteem, she should only allow the courting of "3"'s or less. This way, she falsely believed, she would never have to suffer insecurity issues. What she never understood was how much this superficial practice actually cemented her insecurity as opposed to conquering it. Fast forward...same ugly duckling has now become a swan and is now deemed an "8" on the same artificial scale yet still sees the need to date those beneath her using the same scale as a metric. She thinks such a man will do anything to be with her. That he will be loyal and generous beyond the norm. That she can somehow exact some power over him for the sake of her own "safety". Little does this insecure individual know...that insecurity breeds the same. This so-called "4" could never understand how this so-called "8" could ever be with him and him alone. She receives accolades from men that he doesn't receive from women and she somewhat revels in this...advancing what she believes to be her "grasp to power". Being all too human, doubt creeps into his mind and his own insecurities make him possessive and jealous. He now makes her life a living hell. So much for that scale...

Folks, she used an artificial scale to find self-validation and in turn, used the same scale to validate others. A scale that cannot measure what will always remain a constant source of true pride or real shame...the soul. The man or woman that knows who and what they are inside have no patterns or scales wherewith to measure the value of an individual. Why? Because they understand that if their own inner complexity has too many variables to quantify on a simple scale, then so it is with almost everyone else. Your outer shell has an eventuality of decay but your heart will always have the ability to find new reasons to live, to laugh and to love...I'm out...

~Apollo