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Wednesday, September 25, 2024

He Also Serves - A Waterman Tale by Moe


She sits alone, contemplating the subtle raindrops tapping at her window. Music, love... ease. With a glass of wine in her hand as soft tunes play in the background. Her kids are with their dad for the weekend, and she's feeling a sense of longing. A longing for the man who would not leave her heart in peace and the man her mind could not so easily erase. A man who would show up even in her dreams at times like a welcome intruder come to fulfill a fantasy. An untapped secret... rarely ever spoken of. Even... when she was with someone else. Herself, being a woman of substance and stature, she knows what she has and who she is, is set in stone. Seasoned enough to know that a sweet taste of something that lingers like an echo ecstatic in the heart is so much sweeter than what remains ordinary in the humdrum of daily life. Tonight, her will is yearning for the taste. Like a woman in command, she picks up her phone and texts three simple words... "I need you...". Only ten minutes later, he responds with: "Ok love... when and where. "

Waterman, sitting by candlelight, was picking at his guitar at the time he received that text. He read it and smiled... knowing all too well exactly what it was for. He was not the slut many stereotyped him to be. No, he was very selective in his choices... as well as eclectic. He knew this was special. A seasoned man that understood and practiced in the ebbs and flow of passion, that had little desire to posess anyone or become a posession himself. In a world where so many seek the fragile delusion of a stability made unstable by a fickle society, he had decided that the transparency found in being brutally honest and up front about the fleeting nature of a thing meant that it could blossom into anything the winds required. Found in the freedom to love and express an unbridled passion in the moment without the anchors of expectation. Tonight, he knew this was not an invitation to become a couple or a request to change a life or two. No, it was an invitation to do what he had a passion for. To experience a moment of want and desire with greatness. To serve in a capacity that brought pleasure. Not for an agenda or something so surface as lust... but to be able to please a beautiful woman he was connected to. A woman, he could call one of his own. To fulfill a part of what he felt he was designed for. Even if just for the one night... he knew it would reverberate throughout time as a memory worthy to recall if ever a moment called for the evidence of passion. He prepared for the night ahead as he would normally do and waited on his location.

About an hour later, he got the address to a hotel halfway between them both. She knew what she wanted and made every preparation needed for the night. This... was a woman among women. She wasn't interested in protocols or lists. She wanted what she wanted and she didn't care about the critism should anyone find out. Even still, discretion was paramount as this was something she would NOT normally do but her need to have him superceded her common practice and of course, Waterman understood. 

Symbiosis took place that night. Expressed in every way imaginable to the backdrop of a Jon Hassel melody. Where nothing was off limits and every glide was sweet and fine. Soft and hard... fast and slow. It was a night where two people made love, assuming they would part ways the next day... never to see each other again. They took their time... every time.

As it was, after very little sleep and a water conservation shower (showering together), they walked out of the hotel room kissing, as they held on to each other for dear life. For that long night up until the rising of the sun... they were a couple... and it was beautiful. 

Now, some would call this a booty call, but in retrospect... it was way more for them both. It was the natural fulfillment of a connection shared in purity of purpose and design. A night produced with an understanding and a care between two souls seasoned enough to know what it could mean. A night where a woman took the world into her own hands towards the fulfillment of a long since held fantasy. Knowing the one she chose was not just up for the task... but that it was his fantasy as well... just as much as it was hers.

And so it went... until the next time ;-)

~moses apollo


Sunday, September 22, 2024

"Wait, I Say..."...

 

"...fly away... i'll never be the same.  shhhh..."


"wait'll they get a load of me..."


~moses apollo apolinaris

Monday, September 16, 2024

Permanent...

 


"but when you're lovin me I'm fine
so love me... just one more time
'cause when I said, "I love you"
that's forever

and I'm trying to reach you

do you remember when... we touch
like old friends
and I smile at you
then we both start laughin"

when the future proves our past... verses from Draco Rosa's "Mad Love" that will forever remain relevant. why? "just because"... is permanent my love ;-)

~moses apollo


Tuesday, September 10, 2024

The Seasoned Few...

"...you'll never know the top till you get too low..."

I confess to lust, to want, to need, to desire... and to love. I confess to allowing myself the vulnerability of a poetic fool that would still travel miles for just a kiss. All under the inspiration of what most would now deem a "fairy tale". I confess... I still believe in "forever". I still believe in an orgasm that lingers beyond the night into beautiful memory. I still believe in missing what you've only had at heart. I still believe in an "us" that is capable of flourishing in turbulent flight. In an "us" that finds a way to turn that turbulence into a passion dance... choreographed by the unique combination of our souls alone. Whose stage is found in the eye of a storm specifically designed with the union of our two bodies in mind. I still believe...

And so we stand... we push no matter what has happened. As though only seconds on a speed bump of caution had slowed us down to life. All with a purpose in mind. With lessons formed as scars upon the skins of our souls. All, in order to lean into a newly branded perspective far from bitterness. A perspective that proves the most important parts of ourselves are immovable and unshakable. Parts that loudly declare that we are not the type to surrender to the fickleness of this age. That our substance is real and that our faith, hope and love are worth fighting for. We stand... we press... we fight. All the while... makin this sh*t look good ;-) 

Oh and we ain't done yet. We have chapters to write. Both together... as well as apart. Chapters on discovery, evolution, purpose and passion. Chapters on love and hope that will move even the most adventurous to shiver at the telling. Neither young, nor old... we are the seasoned few. Seasoned by a pain, grief, loss or struggle that came to break us... but that only managed to slightly bend us instead towards a clearer vision of all that we truly are. In a world where everything tastes the same... we stand apart now. And the more we face... the less blandness we will embrace. It's just the way of things... accept it. Understand your worth and allow life's lessons to keep you in check but rehearse this reality in your soul: false humility is a virtue signal we can no longer afford to indulge. I'm out...

~moses apollo   

Monday, September 2, 2024

Another Night... Another Dream...


Dream 9/1/2024

I went to go visit a friend at her home... she was apparently sickly but I didn't know what she had. I walked into the kitchen and gave her a big hug but she had this look on her face like something was bugging her. As soon as our hug ended, in comes this man that was taking care of her. He was wearing what looked like a white half apron that covered only his lower half down to half his thigh and yes, he was fully clothed. He was annoyed that she was out of bed and was acting like he had been doing overtime taking care of her. Almost like an overinvolved nursemaid. He also had the look and attitude of a liberal politician named Sherrod Brown... in both appearance and maybe even politics. In his annoyance, he scolded her saying "you should be in bed!! we need you to get better now!!". When he said this, she looked back at me as she was walking away as if to say "my problem is this man".

As he began to follow her, I stopped him and said "don't worry, I'll walk up with her". He didn't like that one bit. As I walked into her room with her, she began to explain that she was done with his excessive babying. She wanted to spend time on her pastime outside but that he wouldn't allow her to. She actually felt that his Lording over her every move was either making her feel worse... or prolonging her illness. She was done. In an instant, I felt a rushed intuition that this was being done on purpose to control her. To keep her in perpetual state of care kept her both weak and compliant. This was an evil...

I told her to get dressed and to go outside... I'd handle him. She got dressed and went downstairs. He immediately became irate and began once again telling her that she needed her rest. I told him to back off and explained that she actually needed to be outside to improve. His response was akin to "I know what she needs better than you do!!" and THAT was enough to stoke my anger towards violence. I rushed to get in his face and he backed off and said "Fine!!". He took off his little apron, said "she's all yours now!!" and left in the huff of a small man's hissy fit. I just held her for a bit and woke up. As I woke, I heard a phrase that was fading out:

"sometimes those that come to heal... can actually make us worse"

In case you missed it... this isn't about me being anyone's hero. It's about knowing which "heroes" are in it for YOU... or themselves. Stay hip my loves... I'm out

~moses apollo

Thursday, August 29, 2024

"Gardeners"...

"...love..."

Imagine a gardener...

He loved the soil he tilled for years. Learned every inch of it... the kind of soil it was and what it could yield in terms of beauty and productivity. A tender kind of love that grew over time and understanding. As such, he became an expert at all things green and would at times help his neighbors. Neighbors... whose gardens were at times, more fertile than his own. A fact... he couldn't help but notice.

He grew to see how expert he became in this field and began to resent the keeping of his own little garden. He thought it drew him away from other, greater soil he could tend to. For although there was upkeep of his garden through skill, without love... the will to do so waned. He grew tired of his garden and decided to explore new soil. This "loving" man became corrupted by hubris and greed. He did the one thing a man of character should never do. He took his eyes off his truest intent... "love". As such, he became a different man. A man of talent without real passion. A man that could easily fool anyone into believing he was different than the rest. Why? Because at one time... he was.

Did the man have skill? Yes. Was he in demand for his skill? Yes. But did he use this skill to do as he pleased... or for some selfless greater good? Yes... and no. And this is where our story truly defines the heart of this man. What was born out of love should have remained a labor of love but he allowed it to be turned into a tool to satiate his ego. Wielding a power he knew he could use against the uninitiated, he hurt many along the way and lost what made him "special". He lost respect for the power he had and became just like every other gardener out there. 

Now, given the painting of the analogy I am using, one could say that I am a gardener myself, but unlike this man... I chose a different path. Because I walked this road, I could identify this easily and sadly... there are way too many like this these days. What's worse... they keep f*ckin with my friends. Good women who only asked for love that get sucked into believing they found it with someone they see as having the ability to give it. Men, that actually can but that have already surrendered to the idea of the times enough that they've begun counterfeiting the motions of a loving, caring and conscientious individual... just to get the pieces that they want. A part they actually learned how to expertly play out... when they were honorable men.

To understand this expose from me, one must understand how I view this "power". I witnessed the truth of it when I was married. Women would engage with me due to appearance yes BUT to an even greater extent... because they could see and feel how much I loved my wife... and they wanted the same. I understood that I was an enigma but I also understood that to cater to this demand meant that I would become a fraud. I would no longer be what they were so enamored by... so I drew a new perspective on it. It wasn't that I was great or special. It was that I was like a rare collectors item and that meant that if at one time I was made without fanfare among ten thousand copies, the fanfare I was getting then, being the last copy in existence... was overblown. In short... I learned to appreciate my own press without being sold into it. I learned that the most important thing was to hold fast to the "why" of it. This way I would remain consistent... even if the "what" tended to change. 

What was the "why"? Love... pure and simple. A driving force that doesn't let up across its spectrum. From "agape" to "phileo", it is a force that says "I'll be there for you when you call and leave you alone if you need me to". Choosing to serve it with honor... even if it costs me... and it HAS cost me. As anything that has value should. Folks, I hold my gifts at high esteem and respect them just the same. As such, it angers me when I see them used for selfish gain by those that should know better. Thus, the reason for this screed.

My friends... stay hip... stay wise. Keep loving and living but remain discerning. There are many "gardeners" out there that should never be underestimated. "Test the spirits" and understand that not all that glitters is gold. Intent... is king. If this is the only thing that God is moved by... why should it be any different with us? With love... I'm out...

~moses apollo


Saturday, August 17, 2024

Immortal...

"oh to see & feel the inner workings of my love for you. the kind you can hold between the whispered silence of breath, longing & a passion that has revealed itself... immortal..."


lean in my love...


eyes closed...

your cheek is on my cheek

your face gently rests in my hand

while the other... rests gently on your heart... as your hand does the same on my own... 


now... we dream...

~moses apollo

Wednesday, August 14, 2024

"Angelic"...


the sturdy ship

without that grip

the center piece

of all release

the passions ploy

main bedside toy

that soothing balm

for peace & calm


the one who stays

unchained by plays...


i have my "ways"

just a few days ago; he walks outside and immediately catches the eye of a comely stranger... storytime: she calls him "beautiful" and calls herself "innocent". halfway flirtin, halfway shirkin on all she really wanted to say... but she was honest. this draws him like water from a well... intrigued. with a sudden pause, she cocks her head to the side and says: "but you know what?... it's like you're... "angelic". smilin, as if to say "ok then... another one", he nods his head, offers up some advice and says he has to go. hand to heart and head bowed (as though bowing to a dignitary)... she grabbed his hand and said her goodbye. still perplexed as to what that all means, he was pleased to have met her. retaining his clear mind: he knows he's just a man but he also knows he's different (not better or worse... "different"). something he will forever try to figure out but to this day, he has been and will forever be many things to different hearts and to all of them... flawed, vulnerable, real and as honorable as his humanity affords him. whether it be static or transient, a steady rainfall or a light mist in the morning... may he be all he was meant to be to all those that come his way. just be mindful on a thing: never see him as one of your "pack" or fall into treating him like just any other. his kind ain't inclined like sheep you can keep. he will respect your game and hustle so long as these are never directed towards him as these are an insult to him and a form of disrespect. many say this as if to set themselves apart but he don't do clichés. many figured this out too late and some are still tryin to prove themselves right on the matter. waitin to none avail to say "I knew it!!" smh it's still ok... cause he still understands: "humans... gonna human"...

baby, it's more than just a "me" thing, 

it's a "we" thing... 

a seek & ye shall "see" thing you dig?

~moses apollo


Tuesday, July 30, 2024

A Heart Set Free - A Word by Moe


on this night of contemplation, the poet sits to whisper about a love in the longing and the beauty therein. as if to say... goodbye my love... till hopeful "next time" come...

across a miles long digital pond, he gazed upon her digital frame and found her familiar. he heard her digital breath and thought it soothing. he looked into her digital soul and saw her heart was made of flesh and blood. beating alive with a passion that cracked all waves that came her way and with it, a blood that bore his name... not unlike his own.

a sudden rush, this beauty's hush of intermittent silence. all at once... smitten and "seen". her laugh, her cry, her rage... her unwanted cage. all making her the more beautiful at every glance. a potential partner worthy of a dance that wills itself the chance... at a love so reckless... it would generate a silent fear of pain.

he pondered what her skin would feel like on the tips of fingers, what her lips would taste like teased across his own & what her naked body would feel like pressed against his flesh. the soft, the hard... her beauty on his beast... the poet on his page... the frustration in his rage left him... wanting.

these "good things" that come and go. all we forget and all we know... they may not last but for a season. but alas my seasons are eternal. they are chapters in a strange book that includes characters that show up from time to time to let me know just how temporary they are... and how beautiful their coming and going is to me. the pain of the pine of a beauty so fine is worth the breaking of my heart... and the renewing of the same. 

to lightly hold what rests unsold. my passion's curse, this lonely verse I have rehearsed... till death my heart doth part.

oh come my love... come to me

come kiss this heart set free

~moses apollo apolinaris

 

Saturday, July 27, 2024

Time After Time...



 

Lying in my bed, I hear the clock tick and think of you
Caught up in circles
Confusion is nothing new
Flashback, warm nights
Almost left behind
Suitcase of memories
Time after
Sometimes you picture me
I'm walking too far ahead
You're calling to me, I can't hear
What you've said
Then you say, "go slow"
And I fall behind
The second hand unwinds
If you're lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall, I will catch you, I'll be waiting
Time after time
If you're lost, you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall, I will catch you, I will be waiting
Time after time
After my picture fades and darkness has
Turned to gray
Watching through windows
You're wondering if I'm okay
Secrets stolen from deep inside (deep inside)
And the drum beats out of time
If you're lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you, I'll be waiting
Time after time
If you're lost, you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall, I will catch you, I will be waiting
Time after time
Time after time
I've got a suitcase of memories that I almost left behind
Time after time
Time, time, time
But you say to go slow but I fall behind
Time after time after time (after time, oh)
~Iron and Wine
that's a promise...