To Build...

"this is a place where I don't feel alone. this is a place where I feel at home..."

Well it's been quite an interesting journey since last years epiphanies have taken hold. I've seen many good things enter my life as other things seem to have crept out a back door thinkin I wasn't paying attention... but it's ok lol Humans gonna "human" all the time. My only gripe is that I know it didn't have to be like that since my front door remains unlocked for a reason. It's so folk can come and go as they please... just be respectful when you do it. To gain access to me is to give you access to my home... something I do not do lightly. I need no giftings, praise or accolade. All I ask is that this fact be an appreciated one. Yet tonight, as I pondered how things are entering new beginnings, I truly believe I have enough on my "list". What list? The initial small army of greats I endeavor to aid in lifting up from different vantage points of life. All to build a place... "where I feel at home". Folks, in the course of someone's life, there are points of major change. Change that can alter their course in a major way towards peace, joy, love or purpose. To be one of those points immortalizes you in the course of their history. They don't even have to know it was you and it means so much more when there is zero need to reciprocate. That you know you did it is enough and THAT builds a castle inside you that can never be torn down. What? You didn't know? No... ya'll had NO IDEA lol

There are MANY things that I do and WILL do that will be misconstrued, judged and scorned inwardly by those too chicken sh*t to ask. Some MAY be obvious but with me... there's usually something more goin on. It only reveals itself later on because I just don't see the need to explain myself to people that should be trusting what they know of me already. I'm so over that junk it's unreal. Across the spectrum... I honestly have outspent all my f*cks. I have NO MORE to give. Instead of becoming an ass, cold, uncaring or indifferent, I endeavor to take this attitude and do some really interesting things with it. Why do people take the "idgf" to mean "destruction"? If our motives now get criticized in "building" just the same... would doing that instead without any thought to motive be just as liberating? The answer is a resounding yes!! It should be both fulfilling and fun for someone like me. 

I am who I am and I will do what I do... take it or leave it. I'm out...

~moses apollo