Rant Of "The Real"...

"I see the games you play & the traps you lay

Not fit to fall in but I let you play them anyway..."

join the niche but look from the outside in...what would you see? you'd see a bunch of people pretending to be what they are not...nor could ever be. i am so sick of reading posts about how much cum so-and-so can take & how horny so-and-so is on a 24 hr basis. tired of reading about what "Mr White Knight" would do in this situation or that. it's a fantasy world where people say & do (in their minds) without consequence as it's all said & done behind a screen. as for those that speak extreme to fit in & choose to finally "act out" the fantasy? these are the ones that fall into the delusion they've created for themselves...a delusion most have been shamed into coddling through what passes for "acceptance" these days. i'm sick of it all. what do you think would happen if we all of sudden lost power & had to communicate face to face? we'd wind up meeting socially awkward people at least once a day. the "horny" would all of a sudden be revealed to have crippling insecurities. the "soft", "sensitive" men would reveal the creepy, cringe side you were never meant to see. the "tough" man would be revealed to only be tough on his woman & those weaker than him.

i speak in frustration as a man that has lived out & through most of what these cosplayers pretend to be living out now. some of it is funny but most of it is sad & pathetic. they glorify what in the real world could normally drag one down into despair & lunacy. folk speak willy nilly on the spiritual things as though it were some sort of D&D board game. all I ever have to do is speak on some of my weakest spiritual experiences & they would lock up in fear. folk speak willy nilly on sex...the truth of my experiences wind up intimidating some when they find out i'm not full of sh*t. lest people start rollin their eyes thinkin i'm full of myself: it's not that i'm so "great"...it's simply that i've stayed true to the art of deep intimacy. something that has been replaced by surfaced "f*cking" & porn speak. why? because it's so basic & easy...& there's very little chance of falling in love by the act alone (secret: folk fear this now). 

now, tune in to be the "ear" of understanding for someone for a bit & watch how they try turning that into a chance for more. to "take" & take some more until the orgasm says "ok we're done here...we can now be who we really are". i can tell you that when i wrote this just now, i perceived someone reading this is going through just that but hasn't seen the extent of it yet. for you: DO NOT confuse your "caring" & "affection" for "true love". you may "have love for em" but don't make the mistake of believing that's full on "romantic love". there's a difference...don't let them cloud the distinction. agendas, delusions, masks & cowardice have become the standard...& i hate it all. 

so who am i talkin to? i'm talkin to those of you that while reading this have nodded your head &/or raised your eyebrows at least once...take this to heart. the idea is to take who you are & diminish you until you begin to feel the pull to conform...to lay waste to the truth of all you are & become another willing participant of the weak & controlled. to become another caricatured NPC (non-playing character) without a name. to surround you with claims that "you cannot exist in our world" but i say to you it is THEM that cannot exist in OURS. cultivate & grow in your name. seek out what is real & pure & watch out for what is in your world. never fear them but once identified, keep them in the category of the dismissed. why? anyone that will pretend to be someone or something they're not doesn't really exist anyway you dig? i treat them as such...rant done. i'm out...

~moses apollo

PS:

storge, phillia, agape, eros

learn the difference between the 4 & never allow anyone to confuse (or trick you) you into believing everything is "eros". nuance is king...