Dangerous...

"when your fear is currency

and you feel that urgency

you want peace but there's war in your head

maybe that's where life is born

when our façades are torn

pain gives birth to the promise ahead..."

...is the seasoned man housed in a body that only improves with age. instead of laughing at time, he laughs with it since it seems they have become friends. the man sought terms in his new iteration as solid are becoming his ways. after a time of needed introspective growth, a few rooms in his heart close to make room for others/more important things and then there are less than a handful of rooms...expanded not by choice...but because his heart said so. his mind as yet to fully accept it but it's come to trust his heart in this matter. one room is meant to house a love so intense...it's time in absentia has become a deliberate safeguard. a safeguard against frustration, pain and the fear it will be too much to contain. the thought of its loss became so heavy that even the mention of a kiss could induce the fear of an indelible stain and a night of intimacy...the dread of a permanent scar. he says nothing...but he knows. he's seen it over time. the problem is that some safeguards take hold and what was meant to be temporary...becomes too "set in" to undo. something he has no control of as all he can do is stay true to who and what he is becoming. 

"i live, i love, i live...i grow...i love still..."

and in every iteration...there's still...you. i'm out...

~moses apollo

PS: SO SO GRATEFUL...