Stay Real...

"I get a little bit bigger but then I'll admit, I'm just the same as I was. Now don't you understand, that I'm never changing who I am"

On this day, I received part of a two-fold blessing I've been waiting for and I'm ok letting go of the constant strain in thought this miracle now relieves. I know there are more blessings coming my way and a couple of others that are meant to shine brighter than me before I can fully walk in the plans that keep my mind looking towards the future. I used to wrestle with that and within parts of my humanity...I still do. Yet it's that truth that allows me to place my priorities correctly with the ease of a man that can walk blameless before God and man. Staying true to who I am keeps me staying true to those I love and in this...I find my peace.

Folks, I've seen too many husbands and fathers reach the world in ways they've never even tried to reach their wives or children. They officiate their ability to save the world while their personal world stands in turmoil from neglect. I've heard prison prophets speak about Nietzsche and Muhammad to fresh minds coming off the bus to fresh cells. Telling them it's time to change and stay out of prison while they openly plan on doin dirt as soon as they get out. You see it feels good to be able to influence souls but what good are you building yourself up in speech if you already know you're gonna fall short in deed? Too many love being seen as "the answer" without letting anyone know they are just as human ahead of time. Without letting the listener know that the only thing that makes them wise is the fact that they've been able to surpass the state of the person they're speaking to at the moment. I'm not special because of me...but in spite of me. There's a responsibility that comes with inspiration and influence that very few understand. The thing with me is...I do.

You won't ever hear me preach about outward piety without telling you that the most important piety you could ever possess is that of the soul. Something folks will seldom see unless they are willing to look that deep. I will never preach about the greatness found in wisdom without lamenting the truth that wisdom could be a burden at times. Having so many answers can become a burden when there's something you can't figure out and there's no one around to help because they believe you have it all figured out. I will never preach about abstinence without telling you that to me, connections and love at times go deeper into the heart of God than pieces of paper can ever reach and that these serve as a prerequisite for keeping it meaningful. Nor will I ever preach about church without telling you that though it may serve as a primer, that in itself won't get you closer to God if your heart is closed off to His voice. While I may present the bar of my humanity the same or higher than average as knowledge permits, the bar of my soul will always be shown to have no ceiling...because that's real my people.

Some people call themselves real because they're quick to throw out an insult but that don't mean a damn thing. Real is being willing to insult your truest intent for the sake of course correction without applause. Real fits everywhere and nowhere at the same time. Real has many acquaintances and a handful of true friends. Real is conflicted before its assured. Real is changing your heart before you could change your mind. Real is quiet before it's loud but most of all, real is ugly...before its beautiful. In short...real is growth.

My conscience was once loud enough to rob me of choice and through the years, has become soft enough to follow as easy as the voice of a wise lover lookin out for her man. Even though I may hate it at times...it serves me well. I'm staying true to my inner world so that I can stay true to the world that is nearest to my heart. In time, if God wills, I'll fully branch out further without ever having to bear the heavy weight of the hypocrite that needs to hide behind a wall of fraud. Stay true to who you are and those closest to your heart. Do right by you and them first. Along the way, do what you can for others always keeping your truest priorities at heart. Stay real my people...I'm out.

~Moses