Sunday, April 9, 2017

What Pain Is Mine To Bear...

"From the perfect start to the finish line..."

Inches and yards mean less to me than the roads I see paving "forever".  Such a gift has made me a seer of the morrow as it has quietly "kept" my present.  Making me a man of consequential thinking.  Making me a man that can see life and death on the horizon.  Choices made and some deterred for the sake of an untangled life but when it involves your children, what do you do?  What carries more weight?  What you want to do within the construct of parental love or what you must do for their growth?  One is easy and the other is always hard...too hard to bear most times.  My love would shield them in perpetuity yet the seer in me would let them feel the pain so their own shield would become strong enough to survive without me.  My heart and mind fight for supremacy...and it carries a heavy hearted weight that lingers with every passing day.  So be it...

My trust in God is my refuge yet I am clear that "to whom much is given...much is required".  We pass the stages of babes and suckling enough to provide for the babes that we are now entrusted with.  We develop this over time as we allow ourselves to learn the right lessons.  We learn how to fight so we can fight for another.  We learn how to provide so we can provide for another.  We learn how to love so we can show love to another and we learn to live...so we can soon be blessed to live for another.  Such things make us great and nothing hurts more than being made.  Parents feel it until the clouds part enough to see the evidence becomes clear that their children have now been born into manhood.  There is nothing like the love of a parent.  I now understand my Father, His God and mine...like never before.

So I will endure and my trust in God will carry us through.  I will soon witness the grace in this as I have always done but tonight...I allow myself a moment.  The morning will come, the clouds will part and the storms will cease.  Until that day we are strong...only to become stronger still...

Till next time...

"One day we will reveal the truth..."

~Moses Apollo

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