Under The Weather...

"and now the moment you've been waiting for is here..."

Yeah Im feelin like I'm comin down with somethin Im tryin to fight now before it gets worse.  It's interesting to note that in times like these emotions and intuition become heightened.  Not to compensate but simply because all physical stimuli becomes somewhat muted.  This allows you "hear" yourself better which incidentally is the same reason people go on spiritual "fasts".

So what you may ask, am I beginning to feel?  Not a fuckin thing and that's both good and bad.  Good because I feel like shit and am in no mood to deal with anything.  Bad because something I'm supposed to feel is missing which tells me it's time to change a thing and this one is disappointing.  I've been feelin it happen as I hoped it wouldn't but I always saw it as a probability.  In either case, even if the it doesn't include me, if the outcome is good...I'm good.  Besides, it's nothin new.

I'll most likely be deactivating Facebook for another long while again soon I guess and just become more opaque as I do except of course for here and some outside that realm of course.  Some people have the misconception that all my friends are on Facebook and that is way off to say the least.  To have a life centered around social media alone causes one to lose grip on reality sometimes and God forbid I should ever let that happen to me.  I follow every technological advancement to keep up with the times.  I study them and learn them so I will never be left behind but I keep my feet grounded on humanity.  My own...and everyone else's.  I watch the tides and ride the waves but I always know how to find my way back to my 12x12.  The place where I reside with skin, bone and humans that use lips to talk as opposed to keyboards.  People these days think that to unplug means to disconnect and that's a falsehood.  If you are connected it don't matter how far away you are around the world...you will always be connected.  That, I can tell you from deep experience.

Now is this me talkin?  Or just my feelin like shit manifesting itself into a rambling soft lash-out?  Heh...you never know.  "Que sera...sera"  I'm out but I ain't done ;-)

Moses Apollo Apolinaris