"We've been shot up, beat up by the falling of the arrows. Yeah I'm full of deep cuts right down to the marrow..."
Pertaining to women I can assure you that there is nothing on this blog that will advise you in doing as I do save for one recurring theme..."sincerity". I have known a few that have envied my life as a free man only because they truly do not understand that for a man like me such a thing runs the gamut of complexity. Why? Simply because I am who I am. As such I define this life differently than most yet use simplistic terminology to help people understand it's base. Yet what lies underneath it all is way more difficult to explain.
To be sincere means that when you compliment her you are doing so because you mean the compliment. The compliment is not used to lower her defenses enough to engender trust just so you could sleep with her. You have to mean it or ain't worth shit to me.
To be sincere is to understand and greatly appreciate the uniqueness of every soul. To listen to the beauty of her song and appreciate just how much of her is in the song she just sang. Look for her in the song. If you can't or don't want to it ain't worth shit to me.
To be sincere means that you are surrendered to her moment because you truly believe in her and her cause. You've come to listen because you are truly interested to the point of being able to articulate it yourself. If you're not surrendered in her moment then it don't mean shit to me.
To be sincere also means that you must spend time getting to know her heart and mind before you even think about getting to know her body because without understanding the heart and the mind, you can never truly tailor your love specifically for her. All you will be able to perform for satisfaction is a mechanical "paint by numbers" I've often spoken about and there will be nothing behind your endeavour. You have to learn her or it ain't worth shit to me.
Now what does all this mean? It means that if you are a man of conscience you have no choice but to be sincere. It means you can't fake it even if you tried. As such you will come to find that a hole between some legs isn't enough for you. Picturesque model types will need to meet a standard. Tits and ass even the angels crave will have you yawning if these others elements are not met. You will require more for meaning and as such, most of the time...you will remain alone. You will wait for those that can move your soul. At times you will be let down by those pretending to want the same freedom. Showing you how wonderful they are yet driven by agenda. Thinking that because you are just like any other man, you will want that for life. You will meet gamers that wish to challenge you every step of the way, thinking that you just want a challenge only to find yourself moving on yet again because you just are not interested in playtime over control. Tit for tat becomes just "tit" as you yawn yet again until all interest is gone
Young man, many think this life free of pain but as a man of conscience and code, it is replete in "uneasy" frustration and slight disappointment. Those that think otherwise have the idea that callousness is the only way to live this life and they would be correct in part. Yet because I am not callous and choose to feel, it becomes way more difficult. Yet no one will know just how hard it is because they will take a look at the women you've loved and pat you on the back because of a posted picture yet never understand or care that you took the time to know their hearts in intimacy. I was honorable in marriage and I chose to remain honorable...even in this life. I am a lover...not a dog. Even if I can be one if asked...
So peruse this blog from the very beginning and mimic everything I said and did but if you think it only to be about "motions"...you will fail with every encounter. You will become nothing more than a male slut that has to travel to get the same shit you can get in the bathroom all by yourself. Be wise and stay wise...
Now for those of you saying "There he goes again, talkin about how great he is with women"...you can eat shit. Almost every event that has taught me something profound has had a female lead in one of the starring roles. It is my life and to speak about my universe without including that aspect would remain an incomplete story and I will never shortchange a message simply because you want me to show the semblance of false humility. Numbers add nothing to character but oftentimes it has people A) Questioning your veracity and B) Thinking you are full of yourself when the exact opposite is true.
So young man there is no book I can write describing what makes this so called "free life" work. For that I would need to describe rules and points that I know are completely futile. There are no absolute rules in this life because they always crumble under the heaviness of their own weight. Nine times out of ten, you will come to find that it is a rule manufactured for the sole purpose of convenience of the one that wrote it in the first place. If you on the other hand follow that same rule, the person that initiated it will hate you for it. Not because they are evil people but simply because they are human. So always make sure that any demand you place on another is something you are more than able to follow yourself. When it's good, it's great but when it's bad...it's awful.
Sincerity is the only rule you should have. Any more or less...and it don't mean shit to me...
~Moses Apollo
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