Isn't it funny how some people get in the passenger seat of a long drive and never really bother to look outside the window. Just to look...to take in every bit of their beautiful surroundings and gauge just how different their moment makes them feel outside of all they're used to. Not better or worse...just different. How you react internally in such occasion is telling.
What do you find beautiful? Scary? Or maybe something you saw made you uncomfortable? It's like testing your threshold for pain or pleasure. It says more about you than the moments stimuli. It can reveal what you really can handle and all you can't. What you really love and all you can do without. To get lost in the moment is the gift of the fool but the fool doesn't have to be stupid. He can still learn. He keeps his eyes open...looking inward, eventually finding his way outward.
My journey is far from over but the moment has me in a state of calm. Where new rules actually begin to make sense and old rules that stand the test of circumstance are rewritten to remain relevant. Where moving forward is way more important than how long it takes to get there and where I am better daily. So is my place...so is my heart. All I have ever known becomes settled law in the heart of me. Reinforced by change and ever strengthened by the beauty of the barn I just saw outside my window.
And so I take my place among those that have held on to all they knew was true. In the midst of "contrary to the fact" circumstantial evidence, I wait patiently for more...and I gladly receive. Tonight I am grateful for my losses because I have gained a better understanding of who I really am and all I really want. I just want to be at peace on my ride...and I know I will be. You too ;-)
My driver just turned to me with a smile and said "see...I told you so"...
~Apollo
PS: I thought of you today...
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