Tomorrow is Thanksgiving. Just one year ago I celebrated this holiday with Jen's beautiful family. They must've had at least three different kinds of meat on the table. It was truly a feast and I really enjoyed my time with them. At that moment, I was thankful to be in love. Truth is...I'm thankful for it still. Some people can't comprehend why I still speak as I do given all that happened but that sh*t doesn't matter to me. All that matters to me is that I got to love someone with unrestrained passion. Passion that produced pain and pain...that produced beauty. I will never regret my time with her. The bad stuff left scars I can't do anything about. The good stuff still makes me smile at times and yet I can say without a doubt...it's those scars that keep everything in perspective for me when it comes to what happened with us. She is a chapter perpetually written into my life's book. A chapter I've read ad nauseum and one that thanks to the scars...I will never repeat.
Yet now, I look back on all that's happened in this year and I'm truly thankful for life and love. Life...because I almost lost it and love...because it still surrounds me. The love and care of the extraordinary souls I have been privileged to know and experience. Those that outshine me yet still see something in me I've yet to truly fully accept for myself. People that want nothing from me...but me...and that makes me feel wonderful. Although I still have to walk in mud piles, they remind me that I'm more than that and for that I'm truly thankful. They deserve all I can give and I will always do my best to give them my best.
We all have things we can point to that should produce gratitude but sometimes we wallow in our own defeated moments. Ignoring those moments you just chilled with someone great or that deep talk you had with your kid. Ignoring the good because it's always easier to be upset than it is to be happy. It's always easier to see the sh*ttiness of life than it is to see those seconds of shine. Make tomorrow the day that sh*t ends. Thank God for the good...and the bad. Without both...we'd be uneven...
So yeah, "today has been ok"...Happy Thanksgiving
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