This is October...

I found out something...

I am loved...  I am loved by people that love me at distance, in closeness, even in "not enough".  They love me even when they hate me because I can't give them more.  I am missed and remembered...I am blessed, not as a testament to how great I am...but how wonderful they are...

I found out how out of control my life really got through the eyes of one of the most beautiful people you will ever meet.  I found out that real family love knows no time or space and that eventually...that love makes it's way to a place of beautiful collision.  I found out that there are people I miss without having ever met them face to face and some I miss...that I have the privilege of seeing everyday.  I found out I have want and need that has lingered in my soul for years unfulfilled.  Something only true passion can satisfy.  I found out that I will "love" no matter what...I will "miss" no matter what...I will "be" no matter what...

And one more thing:  You can have me...but I will never be able to have you...

Yeah, it's been a crazy month