The serial killer walks up to the thief and says "Hey, I think what you do is morally wrong" lol
It's amazing how in an effort to defend ourselves, we lose sight of all things proportioned. In my life I engaged in activities to make money that some consider unethical and I'm ok with it because I would never do any of those things to people I loved or cared about. Yet to be judged and pointed fingers at by someone that I had to put up with A LOT to love brings in feelings of disgust. I brought this person into my home and saw this person as a potential wife even AFTER I had caught her in deal breaking lies. Lies that dealt with her interest in other men. My love was that strong for her that I became blinded to it all. Even AFTER I saw all the ugly I saw in her. Her friends see her as this pristine and noble creature because she pays her taxes and keeps her bills in order yet what they don't know is that this is a woman with so many skeletons "in the closet" that the doors would not shut when we were together. What spilled out was enough to make any man run and hide but I stood still seeing merit in her. I was a f*cking fool to do so. Little did I know that this person would never afford me even an inch of grace I afforded her when the time came to do so. I am disgusted and dismayed. How anyone that would lie so freely would have ANY place to judge ANYONE else is beyond me...really.
Tell me if you could handle this: To find out that a grevious event that is thrown in people's faces continually NEVER F*CKING HAPPENED!!! That this lie lasted throughout the years and brought shame and pain to those closest to her so long as she got the attention from it that she desperately needed. If you knew what it was...you would be shocked as to one; how could anyone lie about such a thing and two, how the f*ck did I stay with her? You are a fool if you find this out after some suspicion and NOT do any checking into anything else...especially if you plan on bringing this person around your children full time. So yeah, I ran my resources and checked her out...out came even more ugly. My mistake was sticking around even then.
Remember when I said I would explain later what happens in my "next chapter"? Im getting there now...and as I am hate and disgust is beginning to set in.
It's amazing how in an effort to defend ourselves, we lose sight of all things proportioned. In my life I engaged in activities to make money that some consider unethical and I'm ok with it because I would never do any of those things to people I loved or cared about. Yet to be judged and pointed fingers at by someone that I had to put up with A LOT to love brings in feelings of disgust. I brought this person into my home and saw this person as a potential wife even AFTER I had caught her in deal breaking lies. Lies that dealt with her interest in other men. My love was that strong for her that I became blinded to it all. Even AFTER I saw all the ugly I saw in her. Her friends see her as this pristine and noble creature because she pays her taxes and keeps her bills in order yet what they don't know is that this is a woman with so many skeletons "in the closet" that the doors would not shut when we were together. What spilled out was enough to make any man run and hide but I stood still seeing merit in her. I was a f*cking fool to do so. Little did I know that this person would never afford me even an inch of grace I afforded her when the time came to do so. I am disgusted and dismayed. How anyone that would lie so freely would have ANY place to judge ANYONE else is beyond me...really.
Tell me if you could handle this: To find out that a grevious event that is thrown in people's faces continually NEVER F*CKING HAPPENED!!! That this lie lasted throughout the years and brought shame and pain to those closest to her so long as she got the attention from it that she desperately needed. If you knew what it was...you would be shocked as to one; how could anyone lie about such a thing and two, how the f*ck did I stay with her? You are a fool if you find this out after some suspicion and NOT do any checking into anything else...especially if you plan on bringing this person around your children full time. So yeah, I ran my resources and checked her out...out came even more ugly. My mistake was sticking around even then.
Remember when I said I would explain later what happens in my "next chapter"? Im getting there now...and as I am hate and disgust is beginning to set in.
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