Since I've decided to change things up in my training (since the pandemic) reactions seem to be more pronounced. Don't know if it's me or the "times" and since I see myself daily, the "changes" aren't all that visible to me. Today, one man said I should be in movies and a wino lady said I was "delicious" and a "big ole sweet teddy bear"...she wanted a hug and I obliged (usually don't) since her wino husband was standing behind her in approval lol I saw no malice in her and I considered it a kindness to folk that usually go ignored. Not a pat on the back (to myself)...just really felt this one for some reason. Don't know but I suspect I'll find out later.
Here's the kicker: both times...I felt nothing but gratitude. No shyness or recoil. Just an "ok thanks I really appreciate that" kind of vibe. Maybe it was the way they approached it or just me gettin used to my new "suit" lol You'd probably say: "Hey just post some pics!!" Easier said than done by someone that did this everyday till he became so sick of seein himself he had to virtually disappear for awhile. I created what I wanted. This next stage took it a bit further and seeks now to have it all "set it"...keeping it longer (and easier) than most. I don't mind takin the pics and I eventually will...just gotta get my mind in it again. Hate doin stuff half-ass you feel me? Anyway...back to our regularly scheduled programming ;-)
~moses apollo
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