My World...

At times, you may read that I am a king and refer to my kingdom.  Other times, you may read about my world.  To read this surfaced is to say that I am living in a delusion when nothing could be further from the truth.  I don't often reveal much about my terminology but for what I am about to share...it may be required...

Yes...I am a king and my kingdom can not be quantified by lands, wealth or possession.  Instead, my kingdom resides within me.  My subjects are love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control on one side of my kingdom and adultery, uncleanness, lasciviousness, idolatry, hatred, variance, emulations, wrath, strife, seditions, and envy on the other. At the center of my kingdom, these have all learned to work together for the good of the kingdom. So you see, I am made king because I do my best to govern myself and all that is within me.  Now, notice how I never mention ancestry, skin color or tribal affiliations.  Too many consider themselves kings and queens simply so they can claim an air of superiority and acclaim by way of a delusional ancestry that engenders a sense of entitled respect without the same respect needing to be returned in kind.  I detest such thought because these people come off unmerited usurpers forcibly claiming a title they are not worthy of.  As such I cannot in good conscience consider one that cannot rule his own kingdom as worthy of any crown.  Too many seek to control their external environment and all those in it while not being able to control themselves.  Me?  I earned my crown folks...

As to my world, this is my circle.  Family, friends and lovers that are close to me share in my world as I share in theirs.  So with all being made clear, I can tell you that my world at times has not made sense.  Things I thought I should've seen early kept me in breathless anticipation.  Now, I can see them manifesting before my eyes in my very children.  If I told you that I was emotionally moved when I learned that my youngest has taken to broadening his musical interests by including classical music and The Beatles, you would think nothing of it.  If I told you that I jumped for joy when I saw my eldest buying parts to build his own computer system, then to watch him build it asking me technical questions very few could understand, you would probably say "that's a good thing".  Yet to me, this is them finally manifesting bits of all I consider "good" within myself.  We watch them grow somewhat crooked even after we had instilled in them all that is good in us that they may build upon that good becoming better than us.  I had no doubt it would happen but we get impatient and begin to wonder if we did enough.  If we said enough.  Or maybe even that our mistakes has caused them to abandon all thoughts of emulation.  Folks, your children will fail you.  Just as we have failed our parents in times past.  Yet we grew into the better of them as our understanding increased to include empathy bringing us to the point of appreciation and awe that they could go through all they went through and still maintain their integrity albeit flawed in some cases.  I'm seeing this now and my world is all the more beautiful.

My beautiful people that are parents...be patient.  If you did your job, it will bear fruit in time.  It'll come together soon enough...trust it.  I'm out...

~Moses