Time...

Splintered eyes on a half cocked smile will take in only the mundane. Dare to look away for a month to be able to miss what you forgot had real value. Center your gaze on the sundial's beautiful shadow and take in the epiphany of the moment...it's only time. That precious commodity that carries with it experience and purposed passion. You think they've gone missing but you'd be wrong. Look behind the mirror to find them written on your face. Those lines on your face represent trenches left by tears you shed in anger, pain, determination and love. Place your hand past your chest cavity, feel around and accept that you really haven't lost a thing. They've been there all along. Father time has only rearranged their order to allow you to express the greatest parts of you that have been blocked by the superfluous. The loveliest truth is, time cannot degrade what has real value. The only thing it can do is increase its value...like fine wine ;-)

~Moses

My Credo...

"My business is not your life but the truth of your existence in my universe. My business is not your love but the truth of your love that made its home in my heart. My business is not your politics but the truth of your intended passion. My business is truth...the unease that sets me free. The bruise that's found to heal and the acknowledgment of ugliness that leads to beauty. May truth forever serve as my souls bread and wine..."

~Moses Apollo

Reflection...

A picture is merely a faint representation of a moment in time that is processed via imaginary channels through the eyes of the beholder. It speaks, moves and breathes as imagination would have it and what image faces such interpretation soon becomes the property of the heart that has set forth it's gaze. Yet what if the picture could speak? What if it grew tired of being misread?...

The picture soon becomes a mind that woos and repels until all that is left in the eyes of the beholder is a prism based on truth. Full of color and design with purpose. What was imaginary now becomes palpable and what did not speak...now has of voice that sheds light on the truth behind the image.

The picture may lose some of it's primal draw but it gains so much more when truth and respect go way beyond the surfaced and simplistic. When depth is necessary to even breathe...there is always so much more to "see"...

~Moses Apollo

by the moon - a word by moe

"moon river and me..."

oh my soul sat down by the moon,

my trends form blends that bend unbroken by the wind. they satiate my world through a kaleidoscopic prism as a mystery in a history unknown...cause it's my own. Untorn, it remains unworn by none but me in a place that houses eternal passion only made whole by the seconds found in those moments proving "forever" by this thing I relegate to elevate...called love

may my everyday prove my valentine way....

~moses apollo apolinaris

Greatness Evolved...

"...we made these beds and now we lay where these beds be..."

If there is one thing I've learned in life, it is that we are constantly being tried.  Almost every decision we make reveals a part of us.  Who we are and what is most important to us can be seen in the choices we make in a limited sense.  I say limited only because I can do a thing and without the required knowledge of my truist intent, you may judge me in error.  So then what is truly needed in "testing the spirits" so to speak?  Time...

Too many are quick to jump on a bandwagon when it comes to judging character without taking the time to study the methods and motives of an individual soul.  Truth is, sometimes...it takes a lot of time.  Some are easy reads because they fit environmental and/or stereotypical molds.  Yes...molds.  To think that everyone is an exclusive entity within themselves without recurring character traits found in others is a fantasy.  Yes, people can be read and yet the hardest to read are those that have never deemed themselves worthy enough to love the person they would find once they ventured into self-awareness.  You know them because they usually imitate a character, style and language they deem valuable by the facade of popularity.  Finding their core can take a very long time especially when they have yet to find it themselves.  Now there are a few that don't fit into any mold at all.  Some because they are genuinely flowing in the direction of a consistent evolution.  Others because they ebb and flow in an inconsistent flux due to emotional imbalance and then those that are just plain insane, bat sh*t crazy lol  These are the ones that you are forced to describe by including the phrase "well that's just so-and-so".  It's as though their name becomes an adjective based on their unique personality lol

Folks, I learned a long time ago that my best was always me at my core and that if I had to walk or talk differently to fit an environment that wasn't naturally my own, it only meant that I cared more about acceptance at any cost than being accepted for who I truly was.  That I valued the opinion of those surrounding me way more than it was worth.  That's when I decided to be myself no matter what and I learned that respect and trust is gained by doing so.  People trust who and what you are when they see and hear the same person in every setting.  As a result of my decision, I have long since had a way about me that never changes no matter where I am or who I am with.  Though my emotional, mental, physical and spiritual range may evolve...who I am as a human being is always a reflection of who I am inside and never a reflection of the many surrounding me.

This is why it is important to take your time with souls you see something in.  Sometimes, it's a long wait finding where there is consistency and where there isn't.  Where there is heart and where there is automated process.  Finding out if the face being shown to you is not just one of many aimed to fit a current environment.  It is a truly a worthy endeavour.  Especially if you see a greatness in them that cannot be easily quantified.  Sometimes the reveals can be disheartening and other times you actually consider yourself privileged to be the only one able to witness the greatest blossoming available to man.

The evolution of a great soul...

~Moses Apollo

Sober-minded Forty Three...

Do you remember how you used to dream about "the one"? It's what I have in the past, affectionately called "waiting for Neo" lol Yes, that perfect person that would "complete you"? You find such a person, settle down, bust out some kids and journey together through family life as a single unit. You see them everyday and night and after a few short years, the initial excitement of seeing them everyday evolves into a sigh of relief. Almost akin to knowing your legs still work or like the feeling of gratitude that you have sight as others suffer without.

It's a different feeling that Hollywood has yet to get right. It's as though they can't fathom the process of natural evolution taking place in a romantic relationship as well as any other. Like there's something wrong with you if you no longer have that initial excitement every damn day. Something that is a complete fiction and something that incidentally has become a false expectation that has ruined way too many relationships when they find themselves without this so-called 24/7 "heat". It's hard to work a full time job with a boner folks unless your job requires such a thing. In which case, if it does, you shouldn't be in a relationship in the first place lol Look, the "heat" happens without question when the love is true...but to say it happens everyday is a fallacy. Why do I even mention this? It is because far too many have expectations based on a cinematic ideal and that has caused way too many to expect their lives enriched by another without even considering that in order for that enrichment to occur, it must be reciprocated. Enrichment doesn't happen in the taking my friends. It happens in the giving...

Young folks just starting out will usually have no issue. They will grow into anything. Shit or shine, whatever they are standing next to romantically, will in fact grow into and alongside them. The blessed ones stand next to unrefined gold and eventually grow into refined gold. The not so blessed? They grow alongside shit into people that beat them, cheat on them or treat them like shit on the regular. Unguarded, they can and will grow into fertilizer. So whatever you grew with and into, is usually what you will find ease with. If it was all shit, then I'm truly sorry because that person will find themselves pushing away people of quality and will usually gravitate towards the shit they are familiar with. The very source of the scars they bear. The ones that grew into gold need not be reminded of their worth as they will know to seek it out.

Now what about the folks that have "been there, done that"? They in fact, are the hardest to find a mate for. Why? These are people that are who they are because life has made them this way. They have roots in ways of living that have been tried by fire and are not looking to change so easily. Most are shit and will most likely stay that way. The minor few? They are gold...but it's gold that has been refined. What does that mean? It means that they shine...they really fuckin shine as to be in demand by all those with a fuckin list. The young want them to grow with and the old want them because they would be a great fit in "their" universe. Except there's one problem. All those that want this refined "gold" have their eyes fixated on what this will do for them and how he or she will fit perfectly (with some fine tuning of course) into their life's plan. Yet in all that fuckin excitement and glee, they forget about asking a very important question: "How will I fit into THEIR life?".

It's like finding "neo" means that he exists only to complete them for their purposes. His kids are an afterthought. Friends? Well, they'll just have to talk about that later lol It is precisely the reason why the "LAT" way is becoming more popular with the "single-agains" as it is a way to keep the life they know in tact. Yet honestly, I don't see it as a cure but at most...a "band-aid". The real problem is the self-imposed unrealistic expectations. I hate it when I see women posting "must-have" meme lists thinkin that dude exists. The truth is the dude is a man and the man? Won't have nothin to do with a woman that has a fuckin list lol You know why? He's wise enough to know that he ain't nothin but another set of items on some bucket list. You want all that he has without being concerned with how he got it all because that's not important. How he became the way he became. What really makes him tick? Eh..details right? Or if you do ask, it's only to make sure he's not full of shit lol In all this it boils down to one sad reality. You want everything he has...except him at his core...

Folks, if you are ever blessed to find gold? Love for it's own sake. Gold has a way of working out all the details you think you need. Just make sure you take the time you need in finding out if the gold isn't just some gold-plated piece of copper before allowing roots to set in and you'll be ok. Meditate on that. I'm out...really

~Moses Apollo